Here We Go Again

[Daisy425]

since moving through my outpatient IOP group I have definitely been better able to handle my anxiety. Last night however I got quite anxious. I went to happpy hour with people I work with which turned into a whole evening. I had about 4-5 glasses of wine in the span of 6 hours. I felt fine, I wasn’t drunk or dizzy. I ate a meal and snacks. But, when I get home I started getting very anxious about throwing up (one of my biggest fears. Haven’t done it in years). I made myself shaky and nauseous. After about 30 mins to an hour I calmed myself down and fell asleep. I woke up this morning feeling fine. I feel hungry but I’m scared to eat.

This brings me to today. One of my friends from high school is having a girls day/night at her moms house. She invited me, her mom invited a friend, and her sister invited a friend. I agreed to stay overnight but now I really don’t want to do that after the night I had last night, but I know if I tell her that she’ll be mad. We’re starting the day at a winery in the afternoon where I don’t plan on drinking much of anything. Im just really having a lot of anxiety about sleeping over, and I really just want to go to my boyfriends house and be with him because he makes me feel better. Im not sure what to do or say to my friend. She also has cats and I’m am allergic. Im wondering if maybe I can go and hang out for the girls day but just leave around 11 or before that if they go to bed early.

[Weeniedoglady]

Hey Daisy,

You may not want to hear this but when I gave up alcohol completely my anxiety got much better. I self-medicated with alcohol for many years and it helps initially but then it starts to make the rebound anxiety much worse. Even giving your body a months break you would probably notice a difference.

Try not to worry that other people will be angry/judge you. Be confident in yourself and know that true friends would understand.

I hope you feel better soon.

[Daisy425 in reply to Weeniedoglady]

Thank you so much!! I very rarely drink because of my anxiety but last night I wanted to let loose and have fun. I had a great time uo until it started to make me anxious