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Well another depression cloud has passed through the room and I’m just a crying mess. How am I suppose to cope with not having a home, a good paying job (thank God for what I have, btw..I’m grateful but it just isn’t enough right now for me to get a place), and limited help. I have absolutely NO help from my children’s fathers...or my parents. My mother is helpless herself, so I can’t really blame her. I feel like she was gone the same day she had her stroke. She’s here physically, but mentally and supportively, she’s gone. My stepfather doesn’t have anything to do with me and seems to want me to fail so that I can ‘learn my lesson’. Then my biological father....well I guess I should be used to not getting help from him. He doesn’t care what’s going on with me and my kids, and never did. If I died today, it wouldn’t make much of a difference to him.
I have so much more to say but I don’t have the strength to write it all right now. I’m just so sad, hurt, depressed, sick, and just feel down-right low. I was always able to stand on my own two feet. Now I feel like i can hardly even crawl.
I’ve been trying and trying. Lord, I need strength. 😞😞😞