Here we go again...!!!

[SimplyMe87]

😔😔😔😔

Well another depression cloud has passed through the room and I’m just a crying mess. How am I suppose to cope with not having a home, a good paying job (thank God for what I have, btw..I’m grateful but it just isn’t enough right now for me to get a place), and limited help. I have absolutely NO help from my children’s fathers...or my parents. My mother is helpless herself, so I can’t really blame her. I feel like she was gone the same day she had her stroke. She’s here physically, but mentally and supportively, she’s gone. My stepfather doesn’t have anything to do with me and seems to want me to fail so that I can ‘learn my lesson’. Then my biological father....well I guess I should be used to not getting help from him. He doesn’t care what’s going on with me and my kids, and never did. If I died today, it wouldn’t make much of a difference to him.

I have so much more to say but I don’t have the strength to write it all right now. I’m just so sad, hurt, depressed, sick, and just feel down-right low. I was always able to stand on my own two feet. Now I feel like i can hardly even crawl.

I’ve been trying and trying. Lord, I need strength. 😞😞😞

[Agora1]

SimplyMe87, we all need a hug at some time in our lives, sounds like this might be one of those times for you. Sending you a virtual hug from Agora xx

[SimplyMe87 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you. I really do need one of those really really tight ‘it’s going to be okay’ hugs. I’m just so lost 😔😞

[gogogirl in reply to SimplyMe87]

I would give you a hug. We all need hugs.

[km147]

Hi,

First off, you have every right to feel the way you feel considering your tough situation. I think that is something I wish someone would tell me when I am low. I am sorry this happening to you. Just from what I read, I think you need to do daily affirmations. It sounds ridiculous, but I do them almost everyday. I wake up and tell myself that I am great, smart, and focused. I set goals and tasks for myself to finish. I pat myself on the back (no literally) at the end of the day and reflect. It really helps with my sanity, and also makes me appreciate the small victories. Take it day by day. Good luck <3

[SimplyMe87 in reply to km147]

I did do that for a while and it helped my mood, but it’s really hard when things keep going wrong. Thank you for your kind words.

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador]

Do you live in the states? There are MANY organizations I know of in the states that help out single mothers. Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time right now, I now it takes a lot out of us!

[SimplyMe87 in reply to Loveydovey0519]

Yes. I try to get help, but it’s like pulling teeth. It’s doesn't happen as easy as ppl say. At least not around my town. Been looking for help as a single mother for 8 years. I’m near Pittsburgh, PA.

[Tarabell73]

Sweet girl... I have been where you are. I know the fears that consume you. But you are amazingly strong! Look at you... single mom.... doing it on your own... I bet your kids are your life... I bet you go without so they can have more... you are not unnoticed... you are God's precious child. I am commiting to praying for you. Are you in a church? If not pray that God will show you where to go... you will not believe how God will move in your life then!! Don't give up... you are doing it... and it will get better.

[SimplyMe87 in reply to Tarabell73]

Thank you for your kind words and the prayers. I no longer belong to a church, but I’m working on finding one that I’m comfortable in.