Tough weekend

[BrightApril]

My depression/anxiety was extremely bad this weekend. My doctor unsure whether meds need to be changed. I did go out to a religious meeting just to be around other people. When my depression/anxiety skyrockets, I tend to become very needy with people and spill all my problems onto them and scare them away. I know what i'm doing is not wise but unsure how to discipline myself not to do this. Anyone else ever had this issue? Perhaps its just limiting myself to sharing only with my psychiatrict, social worker and here. Also has anyone ever made the decision to hospitalize themselves? How did you know it was time? Thanks.

[EnergeticTortoise]

Dear BrightApril, YES, I relate to so much of what you said. Needing people to talk to, then unloading. I haven't figured it out. Energetic 🐢 , I just posted with much the same question. it's fairly normal to have peaks and valleys with depression, but don't let me or a doctor say what's right for you. If you can come to a calm place and introversion, think on what would feel right for you. I have admitted myself into the mental hospital before, after injuring myself, I needed medical and mental health support, but stayed only a week. I am still grateful for their emergency care. If you can, see clear to what you need.

[Lobaverde26]

Hi honey! I am very sorry that you are going through this situation. I am experiencing the same thing and the truth is that it is very difficult to talk to people who do not understand how hard it is to feel like this. Many in my life believe that I want to be like this, but the reality is that we just want to heal and be happy, feel accompanied and heard.

You can count on me if you need it.

X

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

I totally have been there. I never had really good friends as a child. Then anxiety came into my life that really crippled friendship making. I didn't really start making friends until my late teens. I only have one friend in the same city I live in. Unfortunately for me she'll be moving away in several months. Now I have no friends in town. I'm kind of sad about that.

Anyways when I get anxious I tend to motor mouth and trauma dump on people who may not be prepared to hear all this.

It happens. Talking more openly with your counselor, therapist etc should help with that. That way you don't keep all your feelings bottled up. Also journaling too.

I get the need to be social. We are in fact social creatures.

I'm sorry you didn't have a good weekend. But to let you know that this is only one weekend. It's not going to be like this forever. If going to church gatherings make you feel good and gets you out there socializing. I say is good thing. Even socializing is a bit of a workout.

And if you feel you need to go to a hospital. Do what is best for YOU. Take a look at outpatients facilities. Some of them are pretty nice. Same with hospitals. Some are great and others are not so great. Go and check out reviews and see what they offer and that fits for you.

I wish you the best of luck on this journey 🫂💖

[Hidden]

You are probably better off not discussing details of your depression or anxiety with others unless they are specifically interested in hearing those things. Your clinical professionals are the people to talk to.

In addition, finding the right medication for depression is difficult. it is often a a trial and error process. In addition, most anti-depressants take several weeks or months to begin working, and they may lose their effectiveness over time.

I am very interested in studying newer methods of treating depression and anxiety, such as psilocybin or ketamine or TMS. it is a little early for these things to be available everywhere, but at some point, they will be available and they may represent a large step forward the treatment of mental health.

[BrightApril in reply to Hidden]

I apologize. I did not mean to violate any rules. Thanks for your advice.

[gajh in reply to BrightApril]

You didn't violate any rules. You can discuss whatever you want here. "You are probably better off not discussing details of your depression or anxiety with others unless they are specifically interested in hearing those things. Your clinical professionals are the people to talk to." That doesn't apply to this site. Please feel free to share. That is what we are here for.

[lillackiwi]

Honestly, I'm kind of going through the same. A couple of months ago, I joined a school group just to feel less isolated. My experience did not turn out as expected since my medication required constant adjustments, which made my behavior erratic. So I can relate to the oversharing being seen as a major red flag by other people. It screams "This person means drama/trouble" to many. Even family members showed discomfort at me being so openly vulnerable. I suggest sharing deep thoughts only with people with sufficient emotional intelligence to understand what you are going through. Finally, I've also fantasized about hospitalization as a permanent solution yet it's an option beyond my economic capabilities. I hope you get the help and support that you need soon!