Suicide

Anyone ever attempt suicide and live to be happy that they did not succeed?

I am struggling big time with insomnia, anxiety and depression. I have the best family in the world and don’t want to leave them yet hate living like this.

Any thoughts.

[Redfox9]

Ups and downs are part of life. Don't take any wrong step, think about your family, friends, they need you.

Don't think about suicide, we are all here for you. Try to overcome A and D, you can do it, have faith in you.

[Hidden in reply to Redfox9]

Thank you. Been trying different meds and they are only making things worse. Haven’t found the right med yet. Sleep is practically non existent. It’s horrible.

[Redfox9 in reply to Hidden]

Yes, I have been through anxiety attacks, no sleep, but you have to try. Don't loose hope.

Every single life is precious, we only get life one time. Don't think of suicide, it's my humble request.

And am here for you, if you want to vent out or something.

[Hidden in reply to Redfox9]

Thanks again...honestly I know I could never end it ... I was very ‘normal’ up until a traumatic, humiliating event occurred last March.

Have you ever attempted it? Are you on meds? Thanks for sharing

[Redfox9 in reply to Hidden]

Nope, never attempted it, and not on meds. Am fine now.

What Happened? You can share if you want to.

[Hidden in reply to Redfox9]

Would prefer not to share. Thanks for your concern.

[Redfox9 in reply to Hidden]

That's okay. Take care

[kenster1]

yes me its not nice for family to go through.

[fauxartist]

thoughts of suicide are a part of many of our lives here as it seems to come up when we are at the deepest depths of this disease of depression. It's a permanent solution to a temporary situation....and there is no coming back from it for those of us who cross this line, but the ripple effect on those left behind never ends for them. I don't think anyone who has this thought should be guilt tripped or shamed....it's just a fact. And for some it seems at the moment the only control in their life they have to stop these feelings. But give it a week and most of us have moved on from it. Although there is suicidal ideation...which is a condition in and of itself....like with so many of us...we are a mixed bag.

[kenster1]

let me share one of my experiences.in 2000 my son was killed in an accident I was completely broken.i tried jumping into the hospital power station only to be pulled down by the police and a friend.ok lets share a second.i had a fall out with my dad over the care of my mum I stole all his tablets bought a 3 litre bottle of strong cider sat under a bush eating them all and drinking the cider.i only survived because I never had a light for my cigarette so ventured out to get one.the police stopped radioed an ambulance took me to hospital.last thing I remember is trying to get out as I didn't want to waste time of emergency services.then briefly I came round in hospital but then I slipped away infront of my dad and sister slowly coming to my end.i felt/saw life ebbing away everything inside and around me changed.boom brought back to life sick for what seemed like an eternity my dad and sister crying they thought I was gone.my poor mum my best friend ever left at home not able to come due to her own illness.please don't do it.thats two examples from me.life aint great but its a life and now I have a home partner two wonderful kids.

[Agora1 in reply to kenster1]

Thank you kenster1, for sharing that painful but successful journey. It's true that

we never know what we might miss by cutting our lives short.

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

Thank you. Honestly, i know I could never do it...just at a crossroad as to what to do....meds give side effects, therapy doesn’t seem to work, etc.

Do you take meds if you don’t mind my asking.

[kenster1 in reply to Hidden]

yeah have done for years they help to an extent but its not a magic pill we have to do the right things in life to help us either live with it better or recover.

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

Thank you. Tried a few meds and nothing really calms the brain. May I ask what you take? I have a terrible time sleeping.

[kenster1 in reply to Hidden]

its mirtazapine im on.

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

Thank you...that helps with sleep I believe. Not sure I can take that as I have high cholesterol and supposedly that medication raises it.

[Clue in reply to Hidden]

Trazadone helps me sleep , I've suffered insomnia for a while now. and lexapro helps with anxiety. Cymbalta for depression but everyone is different it may take a while before u feel better. 20 yrs and still dealing with it all but I'm ok with it. See a therapist and talk to y'all. So you know u have us😊

[Krn210]

I haven’t, but have a family member and sadly my best friend succeed in doing so. I can tell you how it has effected me on the opposite end.

[Hidden in reply to Krn210]

I am sorry for your losses...

[Krn210 in reply to Hidden]

I will tell you that you are never ever ever in any circumstance a burden. Your friends and family and even this community including me care about you. It is always ok to seek help and support. No one gets sick of you reaching out and that you belong here.

[Hidden in reply to Krn210]

You are a very kind soul. I am at a crossroad..was very ‘normal’ until I experienced a trauma of sorts a year ago. Have tried meds which only make things worse, have gone to therapy, etc. just not sure what to do anymore. I have the best husband and children on earth so I do want to stick around.

[Krn210 in reply to Hidden]

All you can do is to take one day at a time. Stop telling yourself that you aren’t normal or who you were years ago. All that does is brings you down. Heck I’m not who I once was either, and thats ok along with my perceived negatives of it, there are some positives of it too. Do you think finding a different therapist would work?

[Hidden in reply to Krn210]

Thanks...I am actually on my 3rd therapist and we are trying something called emdr therapy to process the trauma. No real results yet.

[Krn210 in reply to Hidden]

I admire your strength and persistence! Maybe the emdr needs more time to be effective or maybe something else will have to be tried which is perfectly ok! There is something that will work.

[Clue in reply to Hidden]

Try finding somone that helps ptsd

[Hidden]

You are so sweet. I have to keep trying. I have so much to live for and I know that though right now I don’t see a future...

[Humankind-BE_BOTH]

Yes and even science backs it up.

A study of all suicide attempt from the Golden gate bridge from 1930s to 1960s 94% of the survivors were SO Happy they didn't succeed.

It's a permanent alleged "solution" to a temporary problem

[Hidden]

I have. I’ve been into suicide ideation on & off for years before my attempt in March of 2018 after feeling all Hope was lost.

I can now say with help of family, this site, therapy, & realizing that I deserve to live that I am so much happier than I ever dreamed I would be.

I still suffer with severe social anxiety, moderate anxiety, PTSD & depression, but I have so much hope that I am here for a reason.

I am so glad that I didn’t succeed in my suicide attempt. I hope you don’t choose that path. I promise that you can get better. You may always suffer with depression & anxiety, but it is manageable.

Thank you for joining this forum family. We are all here for you. <3

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

You are so sweet. I am glad you are doing better. May I ask you, are you on medication? I have had no real luck with meds (have tried lexapro and sertraline). I barely sleep which has had a negative effect on my health (am close to pre diabetic and have high cholesterol).

Thank you for your willingness to share. My best to you.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much. I used to take lexapro & I loved it. I am pregnant now & I am taking Prozac, but I don’t think it effects my moods all that much. I have had sleeping issues for a long time & it effects my health too. Have you tried meditation, calming tea, no caffeine for at least 5-6 hours before bed, soft music, or bubble baths? All of that stuff helps me. I used to take sleeping medication, but it was way too much & I would be sleeping for days. My best to you too. Xoxoxo

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Congrats on your pregnancy! What a blessing. Yes, I have tried all the natural means of getting to sleep...melatonin has helped slightly at times. Was told that if I gave the anti depressants enough time that eventually sleep would come. Dr prescribed Effexor but I have read horrifying things about it. Prozac may be another option. All the best to you. Thanks ....

[mlj6019]

I’m sorry you are in such a dark place in your life. I pray it gets better for you. I did finally find the right meds that worked for me. The right one is out there and I’m glad you are going to therapy. EMDR can help but beware it could get worse before it gets better because it dives into the depths of your brain to connect with the trauma. I have a family member who did it and it did help but took years to process thru the trauma. I don’t know what kind of trauma you’ve had so that would make a difference. Just focus on the end result and getting better. See it thru and hang in there.

[Hidden]

How are you doing at the moment ?