Tough weekend

[Jvicks]

I don’t post much but, everyone seems helpful here. I am struggling with suicidal thoughts for just over a year. I have been doing pretty good but had a decline recently. My anxiety became intense and I want to kill myself, although I do not have an active plan. I do feel unsafe because my moods have been changing rapidly. I considerd inpatient, but feel like I don’t need it. I took enough lorazepam to make me tired for the weekend.

Not what I am expecting you all to say. Guess this turned to a vent post! Have a good evening all! ❤️

[BrownEyesBlue]

Are you ok? I know how that feels. I get it. And it’s horrible.

Sometimes we don’t THINK we need something but we really do and there’s no shame in getting help. I hope you have a better day tomorrow 😊

[Jvicks in reply to BrownEyesBlue]

I am ok thanks! I will get help when I need it!

[shoppaholicsue]

Hi,

My immediate thoughts are that you need to tell your doctor. The meds he/she has prescribed are obviously not doing the trick. Its great that you can come on here and communicate - but remember we can only advise - we can't do anything.

Please go back to the doctor and tell them all of this - they will have heard it all before and have an action plan.

Much love,

Sue

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so sorry you are feeling like this i know how that feels 😢 I've been trying the mindfulness from DBT. Sounds weird initially but it can help. basically before you get to worse state try concentrate on something else. I like breathing. slowly in and out and count as you breathe in and out. the point is to distract your mind from your negative thoughts. you can practice even when you are not feeling anxious just to get used to it. you can try anything to distract yourself i just prefer the breathing. hope today is a better day for you 🌸

[fauxartist]

Did you take an amount of this medication as an attempt....were you trying to hurt yourself.....if so...then yes.... you do need to seek immediate help, whether you think you do or not. Have there been triggers in your life recently that have possibly helped contribute to this decline or have you just felt this slowly increasing. Please get help, this is a dangerous state of mind your in and you can get help...please ...get help.

[Jvicks in reply to fauxartist]

Thanks for the concern. Not an attempt, just a trial. No idea if I would ever act on.

[fauxartist in reply to Jvicks]

suicidal ideation is one thing....but seriously.... 'a trial run' is definitely a red flag my friend....please get some help.....don't down play this....it is your life...and you have no idea the consequences we put in motion when making one bad choice at a very bad emotional time in our lives....when with help...we can find a better way. Take care of you please...you matter....