Feeling alone, In need of a friend

[Blessingsandlove]

For the last couple of months, I have been dealing with major depression, anxiety and loneliness. I have really been struggling to make it through each day. A few days ago I came close to taking my life because I didn't want to continue to experience those feelings. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about how I'm feeling. I had to stop working because of health problems and I feel like a failure. I feel like I'm alive but not living. I spend most of my day alone. I feel tired and hopeless. My life doesn't seem to matter. My faith in God is the only thing that has saved me so far. I know I should not give up but it's so hard dealing with these feelings.

[gajh]

You are not alone. You are in the right place. You can talk about how you are feeling here. Depression and anxiety are very hard to deal with. Connecting with people here helps a lot. Knowing that people understand what you are going through. Hearing what helps other people. Hearing from people who have overcome anxiety and are here to share. It is very inspiring.

[Hidden]

Welcome! You are not alone! I’m going through the same thing and am receiving much support on this forum! Stick around! There’s lots of people who are and have gone through the same thing! We might not have the same problems for what has caused us to be so broken but we all have a common ground! It’s going to be OK!-Shay

[Hidden]

Thank you for sharing. I’m going through a very similar situation. I feel anxious, depressed, and very alone. My loneliness is being fueled by my estranged mother & sisters, along with my chronic pain. I long for a friend or just someone to talk to that understand. I live alone too. It’s definitely hard to find anyone who wants to hear about our problems, especially when it comes to our thoughts about being better off if we weren’t here. I would enjoy listening to your feelings more.

[Blessingsandlove in reply to Hidden]

I am sorry that you are dealing with a situation similar to mine. No one understands unless they have experienced what we are dealing with. I definitely can be a friend or just someone to talk with or give a listening ear. Thank you for sharing with me.

[Hidden in reply to Blessingsandlove]

Thank you I need a friend. It’s alright with me if you want to share more about your issues. I’m happy you have faith. I’ve tried religion. It interferes with my mental injuries. I live in the Bible Belt. Region here has so many rules it’s not helpful. But I don’t mind hearing more about your journey. Your right you have to experience this to understand.

[Lizzo30]

Sorry to hear of your struggles It seems to me that you are being made a scapegoat by your Mum and sisters

I suffered the same treatment

Your faith in God will look after you in ways that you wouldn't believe possible

I say this as someone older than you and looking back on a similar situation

[Marysblue]

We are here for you, you're not alone anymore. Keep reaching out, searching out new treatments and doctors and counselors. There are things that help it's just a trial and error.I don't have much family either. Or support. Few friends I have don't want to hear about my problems. There are people here that will offer support and understand and not judge you.. we've all been there.

[Blessingsandlove in reply to Marysblue]

Thanks for the encouragement.

[Hidden in reply to Blessingsandlove]

Thank you for your contributions.

[Hidden in reply to Marysblue]

Thank you so much for the kind words. Im starting to trust people in this group. I really am struggling with anxiety & depression over being rejected and so alone. I think I’ve found the right support.

I still think I’m the problem in the family even though I know that is a lie. The pain is very present I’ve be been in counseling on and off for over 30 years. I stayed with one for 5 years. I take medication for my illness. The best therapy I’ve found is EMDR, but I had to quit because of insurance issues. I’m back in therapy and starting ARC. it’s fairly new. treatment. I know nothing about it.

I’ve done inpatient & outpatient so many times it’s hard to believe. My meds do help. Especially with the insomnia. I hope my life improves.

[RbnFerris]

Thank you for mentioning your faith in God - I don’t rely on my own strength , either 😇

[Hobbycollector4]

I’ve been feeling the exact same way for the past few months. I purposefully don’t have friends bc of bad experiences so I keep to myself mostly and only speak to my immediate family and partner. I’m still not able to talk to them about everything in my mind and I’ve been distancing myself. I’m sorry you’re going through the same, it’s so hard for others to understand how we feel. You are not alone at all though - I’ve just joined this forum and am looking forward to getting to talk to people with similar experiences. I’m here if you ever want to talk. Just keep taking it one day at a time.

[Blessingsandlove in reply to Hobbycollector4]

Thanks. It definitely helps talking to someone who understands what I'm going through.

[Hidden in reply to Hobbycollector4]

I would follow you if I knew how. Struggling 😂

[Hidden in reply to Hobbycollector4]

Thank you for offering friendship. I’m struggling with cognitive issues. My brain must be cross wired. LOL. I feel very alone most of the time. I am experiencing lost Time-lapses. The few family members I have done understand or are to young to help. I made the mistake of confiding to my best supporter that I wasn’t keeping up with a personal care issue. I couldn’t believe it when she replied that’s disgusting! I just got out of the hospital 4 days ago for severe depression ect… I’m physically in crisis with serious neck problems that are requiring surgery and a mental Meltdown. I don’t understand how people can be so uninformed after being with me through my mental illness for almost 20 years.

I just needed to vent. I’m doing this life thing one day at a time too. You are not alone. Thanks for you post. I feel better someone here truly understands. Thank you!!!

[Hobbycollector4 in reply to Hidden]

It is definitely one of the more frustrating parts to feel like you can’t be open and honest with other people bc they just won’t understand. I have leaned on my sister a lot as she is the most understanding but i can’t tell her all my thoughts or it would upset her - and when I’m in a panic she doesn’t really know what to do bc at the end of the day she doesn’t fully understand the mental anguish that we have. I feel like my brain is messed up too, I think A lot that I wish so badly that I was “normal” or just had a “regular brain”. I know it’s wrong to compare oneself to others and we’ve always been told “life isn’t fair” but it doesn’t make it any better to know that. I hope your stay at the hospital wasn’t too bad - I’ve been considering going back into one for a bit but the only one around here that I’ve been to before was not very helpful. And it’s so bizarre I’ve seen so much stuff the past decade about “mental health awareness” etc but at the end of the day those of us who are experiencing it are still struggling to get the help and support we need. At least we have each other to lean on in places like this.

[Hidden in reply to Hobbycollector4]

I understand completely! Mental faculties have gone downhill. I hear there are helpful resources on this site. I just can’t find them. I saw a post about them, but I forgot how to get back to them. It is such a blessing to have supportive friends like you.

If you run across those helpful resources please share them with me. I understand you are as new as me , no worries. We will find them eventually. Sleep well my new friend

[Lizzo30]

As I said I am older than you I am looking back on my life now and I see how people / family didn't support me

The main thing I want to say to you is just stay close to God bc He will look after you

[Hidden in reply to Lizzo30]

Thanks for replying

[yolie1984]

I understand. I am in an unique situation. I live with my 3 kids and their dad. But we have no relationship. I feel lonely often. My anxiety has recently began affecting my job.