This is my first post in a while but thought it might help to get some of my thoughts out which just keep going around and around in my head.
Mostly of my thoughts are about not being good enough for anything. I feel like I’m not good enough at work or my friends or family. I’m not sure if I’m overthinking things or not but I always feel like the disappointment. I don’t have many friends and those that I do have I went to uni with. They’re all off working in the field we studied in and I’m just a fast food worker (it’s not what I want to do but I don’t feel good enough to be able to go and do something my that involves my degree). I know is shouldn’t compare but they have successful lives. I also feel lonely because I try and support them with their life events like liking their social media posts or writing happy birthday however when it comes to me and my life events they don’t like any of my posts (I get they don’t always show up but not a single one) and I didn’t even get a happy birthday from them this year.
The fast food work makes me feel like a disappointment to my family too. I’ve even had comments like “is that what you’re going to do for the rest of your life, flip burgers?” Nothing I do seems good enough for them and the more I think about it the more depressed I’m becoming because I don’t feel like I can change my life.
I’ve also never had a proper relationship which is another reason I don’t feel like in good enough and that there must be something wrong with me. The thought of this actually made me cry when a baby advert came on today about the fact I’m probably never going to get that.
Probably rambling on a bit but I just feel so down about myself at the moment and I feel so alone.