it’s been awhile since I’ve posted. I’ve been battling with a cough for 2 weeks now. When I went to the walk in clinic, the doctor claims I might have asthma. . I was hoping it was bronchitis and it’ll pass. It scared me cause my mom has asthma and I wasn’t ready to hear that I inherited it.
Now I’m sitting outside cuz my family isn’t home and I do that so in case I pass out or die, at least someone will pass by and see me. The asthma terrified me as I got anxiety as soon as I started to wheeze a lil when I exhale. My anxiety is a bitch. First, I was scared of my heart and now im scared of my lungs. I don’t know how to get through this.
On Monday, im going to the hospital to confirm my asthma. Health is a scary thing for me cuz I always think that im going to go to heaven. I know no one is ever ready to die, but im not especially. I haven’t lived. I’ve never been in love, had kids, or traveled the world. If the pain isn’t in my body, then it’s in my head. I just want the anxiety to go away