and am STRUGGLING with my mental health right now. My husband and I both work full time, and we “own” our house, but we gotta make that mortgage payment. And I’m paying off the oil bill from last winter still, and work on my car that I don’t even own anymore is running up interest on my credit card, etc, etc. On outward view our life looks okay but I am falling apart inside. And money isn’t even my realest stressor- it’s just the reason I haven’t gone to a doctor to try and get my mental health in order. I don’t have money for copays. I don’t have money for prescriptions. I certainly don’t have that ongoing therapy loot!
I’m caught in an anxiety and depression spiral right now that’s telling me I’m going to fail at school when I go back this fall and everyone is going to hate me anyway and I should probably not even bother and it’s going to be so so hard and I don’t know HOW I’m going to balance working full time overnight and go to school full time during the day and try not to fight with my emotionally stunted husband in the meantime. I’m so alone and I feel like I have no where to turn