I feel like noon we sees me

[Atthepark]

My sons up here visiting me my dad never shows emotion towards me. When I tell my grandma abt my anxiety and she says just don't worry abt it. She says she always thinks a positive outcome will always happen. People don't understand that I cannot control or switch to being a positive person . People wo mental illness acts like it's so easy thing to do and u hit a switch in your brain and your automatically healed from all the negative thoughts.i hate it that me n my mom are the only ones w mi in our family so I have Noone to talk abt it in my family besides my mom who is a selfish person and takes advantage of me . I don't know what I'm trying to say or do here but I'm sick of it all being ignored by doctors half the family lives an hour away and there's a bout 15 of them they don't talk to me call me or react to my posts on fb. I' made a post about anxiety and mi on fb and people commented but Noone in my family ever comments on my posts abt when I feel bad and hate mental illness. It's very disturbing to me that these people call themselves my family but don't ever talk to me only 2 or 3 times a year at family gatherings. Sometimes it feels like every day is a struggle w my emotions paranoia and anxiety and anger.its like I don't know how much more of this I can cope w having family but Noone in my family is in support of my mental health journey and that everyday is different. I'm seeking counseling and I've been seeing a psych Dr for 15 years and life is still hard living w my mental illness

[Agora1]

Hi Atthepark, unfortunately, family or not, people just do not understand what

it's like to live with anxiety. It doesn't mean that they love you less, it just means

that can't support or listen to something that never goes away that they can't see.

Anxiety is a lonely disorder for sure when you don't have support. And so we have

to pay a professional to listen to us which really isn't the same as having daily support

from those around you.

Using YouTube for support and learning can help a lot. So many great videos by

professionals as well as patients who have succeeded. It's a true learning experience

that will make you not feel so alone. Of course, turning to this community is also

here for you 24/7. Keeping the Light On whenever you need a friend xx

[Atthepark in reply to Agora1]

What do I look up on YouTube to learn what should I be learning

[Agora1 in reply to Atthepark]

YouTube has always been my "go to". I usually type in what I'm looking for such

as Meditation, SelfLove, Mindfulness, Heartbreak,Health Anxiety and on and on.

Usually, I get off track and find other topics that pertain to other things I have

found helpful. YouTube can be a great source of help and resources.

Let me know if you need more direction in specifically what you are looking

for. xx

[Atthepark in reply to Agora1]

Ok I'll try mindfulness I hope it works thank u in advnce

[Agora1 in reply to Atthepark]

Don't give up. Not everything is right for everybody. We all react differently.

Have fun finding YouTube as your free helper. We're always here to help

you as to what worked for us. Good Luck xx

[gajh]

Good for you for seeking counseling. It is great that you are reaching out here. Keep looking for support outside of your family. It is sad that they aren't supportive, but you still deserve support. life is hard living with mental illness. It is a daily struggle. Try to find little ways to take good care of yourself.

[Atthepark in reply to gajh]

Ty I will

[Atthepark in reply to gajh]

Yep I did some yoga now I'm in the bed watching TV taking things as they come but I did call 988 it helped

[Atthepark in reply to Atthepark]

What else should I try for self care love

[gajh in reply to Atthepark]

It sounds like you have been doing a lot of self care. Do you meditate? I have started but I haven't noticed it as helpful yet. I don't know if it is helpful for you. I think it is self care to be on here. To know you are not alone.

[gajh in reply to Atthepark]

Good for you!