Abuse

[Rafael_]

I have been living in a problematic household for years, I am exhausted living with my agressors. It feels gross being forced into some situations every day. For months they've been scarring my mental health with emotional manipulation and vocal abuse. They've also have been mistreating my pets when I am the only one taking care of them, they almost got killed by my parents at some points where they forgot to remove mouse traps and venom from my house's yard. I try so hard going to work to at least get a chance to live at an appartment but my brother and parents do not let me sleep on work days and I barely had enough energy to go to my shift. Had to quit two of my jobs because of them and I feel so frustrated at being able to do absolutely nothing about my situation. I tried counseling at my college, but I'm past the limit for my age for them to do anything about this after this legally. My dads a drunkard every like 2 or 3 weeks he comes drunk and I have to drive him home in some days. My mom argues with me almost every time i get back home. I want to be done living like this but I need to do it for a few years until I can get out without the pressure of dropping out of college. A lot of this makes me feel like im behind everyone else in moving with life and cant socially connect with almost everyone and cant talk people into things. feel like im inept at this point with how things are. Part of it is my fault for not interacting beyond like very small conversations in between days. I cant get comfortable around living like this one way or the other.

[just_keep_swimming]

is the amount of mental and maybe physical abuse you endure worth it that’s the questions I think you really have to ask yourself .

[Agamemnon2022]

I understand what it's like to watch others seemingly moving through life & progressing while you feel like you're stagnating. I can hear the frustration in your words. I hope you can find the strength to keep pursuing an exit strategy.

[Tealpillow]

Rafael, that sounds completely awful, I feel for you. You said your parents don’t let you sleep on weeknights - are you open to sharing more about this?

[Rafael_ in reply to Tealpillow]

It's more that me and my brother share a room together, and he spends all the night long talking when I tell him that I have to do things tomorrow but he doesn't care. I have to sleep 5 hours every week because that's the most I can do with him around, I can't sleep on any other room since my house is kind of small

[Tealpillow in reply to Rafael_]

Sleep deprivation is rough! Although it’s not the same, my husband snores like a freight train so I use some small earplugs and try to fall asleep before he does. It may not be the perfect solution - but earplugs may help at least some!

[pamb67]

Find a way of getting out for ur own mental health and peace ✌ it won't be easy but it will be better in the long run and don't suffer in silence seek help and support