I'm scared to go back to my accommodation in my university city

[Against_the_current]

I'm scared to go back to my accommodation. Ik mom drives me crazy here but im scared to go back to my ceiling room with disfunctional kitchen, tenants leaving and coming, having to take care of myself, do chores by myself, big city with bussiness sharks. I have stuff to do there like i have paid rent to be there, paid for gym this month, will go to a psychology training, have to go to the doctor who performed my surgery to have him see what he has done, study for final exam. But im scared i will spiral again. Living at that place is not healthy for me but moving out scares me and everything is above my budged and idk how to move my stuff. I can't even feed myself. But here i shouldn't stay. But i don't want to go back. But i should. Anxietyyy

Thank you for all help. Really need all help available

[LoveforAll41]

Hey Against,

It sounds like there are some health issues that I think should be number 1 priority to get feeling better. Keeping appointments is one way to take care of ourselves.

Are there any local resources that could help you locate housing or move? Government resources? Churches? People from the gym that like to move stuff?

Remember the oxygen mask analogy, before you can help others you must help yourself by putting your own oxygen mask on. It is a great sign that you are reaching out for help, never stop reaching out.

May you have peace, hope and strength.

[Against_the_current in reply to LoveforAll41]

Thanks. There's no help. I need to leave to get to my appointment but there im alone. My mom's abusive but im still scared to go back to living alone. And no help from government or church

[EarthSitter1]

I’m afraid I have no advice I’m afraid just wanted to say I hopyit all gets sorted out for you 💛

[Against_the_current in reply to EarthSitter1]

Thanks

[SoporRose]

I wish I had some help to offer. I'm sorry your choices about where to live or between two untenable places. Which is less bad?

I continue to believe that you have it in you to pass your exam and succeed.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you. I don't know. Maybe stay there because I don't have it figured with my parents leaving and going back to mom and I have to study. Ahh

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

What do you mean "with my parents leaving"? Where are they going?

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I don't remember. Really lightheaded rn

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I hope you're feeling better!

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you. About to travel and anxious. My fatigue, ibs and acids are flaring up

[Tealpillow]

From what you wrote above, it sounds like you might already know the answer :). You said your mom is abusive and being around her isn’t good for you. I think that was good insight on your part. Maybe changing up your living situation will be a good thing.

Living alone can be so hard but there is support and help every step of the way. And even though this group is just online, we can hold your hand through the difficult times.

Sending clarity and strength!

[Against_the_current in reply to Tealpillow]

Thank you so much! I really need it. I'm constantly anxious

[CLB1125]

are there councilors at your school that could possibly help you get your accommodations straightened out. They may have resources available. Good luck