hello eveyone!

[uniquediamond]

I really wish they would bring back the app! I’ve refreshed multiple times and I’m still not getting notifications through my email.

I just wanted to check in and see how everyone is doing?

why does depression come and go like a wave? I thought I was going good and out of nowhere I started crying more and back to not sleeping again, maybe 4 hours of broken sleep, waking up sweaty and anxious. When I try to talk about it I just feel like no one really listens because they have never had to deal with this, and then another part of me doesn’t want to burden anyone with my Compulsive, thoughts and sadness. It’s almost like I don’t want people to see under my fake smile and laugh that I’m actually crying inside. Yesterday at work when my boss left I started crying for at least 20 minutes just to get it out. I’m so afraid all the time, overthinking everything and not feeling good enough… sometimes I wish there was a magic wand so I can heal everyone including myself just to get that moment of peace and freedom from my own self.

sorry for the long post! I just needed to get this off my chest! Thank you for reading

[Sillysausage234]

hi friend,depression sucks how it can just consume you in a heartbeat like that ….hope it passes soon and worrying about worrying phase passes over for you .

[uniquediamond in reply to Sillysausage234]

thank you! I do hope your doing ok!

[Renizzle2023]

Yes it can be like waves. I used to think of it as a tide that comes and goes unpredictably. My take is that building resilience is key and having a strong anchor in your life so that you can ride out the storm. This too shall pass… and tomorrow will be better. Different things might help different people with building resilience, like affirmations, meditation, therapy, spiritual life, prayer, etc.

Also keeping on top of your physical health, especially, if you are female, keeping an eye on your hormones. Hormonal issues can play a huge role with mood.

All the best.

[uniquediamond in reply to Renizzle2023]

I’m gonna be 40 next month and that’s what I thought as well! I have so much to be thankful for, yet I’m in this dark spot or walking in a maze with no lights.

[autumnmarie5]

Hi friend. I completely understand wanting to get the app, I've been wanting to do this too But yes my anxiety/depression comes in waves and its so scary. I hate the way it feels like it over takes your body when you are going through it. For me it's like the devil, you aren't supposed to think about being anxious or depressed but when you do it gives you like the false sense of something to feel better.. I understand what you are going through

[uniquediamond in reply to autumnmarie5]

I couldn’t agree more! When I start feeling this way it makes me feel even more guilty and weaker then I already feel! Trying to find a happy place is so hard sometimes, even tho I have countless blessings all around me everyday, and I’m still in this sad spot even tho I have so much to be thankful for! It’s tough!

[uniquediamond]

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