I just want everyone to know that I am a friend, a shoulder to cry on, and a listening ear. I am going through a lot, but also know that my situation is not as bad as others. I’m trying to heal myself and deal with my own things but that doesn’t mean that I can’t be there for others.
Everyone is fighting there own battles. We can at least try to fight them together though, through words of encouragement and uplifting one another. I wish I could only meet the people who are on here. Know where they are from. How far or close they are to me. Specially in those moments when they are feeling alone or feeling like they want to give up. Its moments like those when I think, I wish I could be where they are and say “hey let’s hang out” or “hey let’s go for a walk in the park” or “let’s meet up for coffee” anything to help someone feel like they are not alone. Anything to clear their mind. Or just be there to talk and hear them out.
Also just want to say thanks to those who are always there for me. Your kind words always seem to get me through and help me. I want to do the same for others.
Last night I put my phone aside, I closed my eyes, and I started talking in my mind. Almost, like I was having a conversation with myself. I was jumping from one topic to another. Sounds crazy! I know. But it really did get me to sleep. Which some of you know I’ve been struggling with for the past nights. Well when I least expected it, I was KO and I woke up the next morning with no headache. 🤗 so I’m def trying again tonight. My next goal is going to be getting to bed earlier. I’m pushing 12:40 right now almost 1 am
When I worked I’d be in bed by 9:30-10:00 pm the latest. I’d like to work on getting back to that.
i don’t know if i want to do this anymore.....
I don’t know how to be alone 
I just want to die
I want to fix it and I just don’t know how 
i just dont know
