Really depressed

[PeaceNeed]

Im 63 and mdd has meesed me up. I went for help from the psych system and it made things worse.Hack psychs, toxic drugs and abusive aids. So much for my golden years.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I’m sorry you’re feeling so poorly.

[Marysblue]

Please don't give up trying to find help. I just found a local support group, it's very small but it's something. There are natural anti depressants you could try if you havent already.Depression has robbed me of a normal life too. It makes me angry too sometimes. I'm dealing with something now that seems really unfair. And it's not been an easy life. Hang in there.

[Celtic27]

Ho max sorry to hear you've had so much problems have you considered seeking another phyc as it sounds the ones you've had are not doing there job right especially as you are not getting better ! I don't know what meds your taking but it can be a nightmare getting it right I take venlafaxine , diazepam amongst other but I had to try different meds so I'm on the correct dosage and it's working. I hope things get better for you all the best 👌

[Starrlight]

Hey I’m so sorry things are tough right now. After every difficulty comes ease. I wish you the best.

[optimismrus]

Sorry you are so blue. I read all of your posts for the last year, and there doesn't seem to be any movement/improvement. Clearly, something has to change, and you're the one in charge. I know this sounds harsh, and I'm sorry. Are you grateful for anything? Find something you are grateful for and build on it. Is there a senior center near you? Can you volunteer somewhere? Volunteering will help you get out of your head. Albert Einstein said doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different outcome is the definition of insanity. Take a step out of your comfort zone and I think you will feel better. Take a class, join a group, find someone who needs your help. You're in charge - I know you can do it! 🥰

[PeaceNeed in reply to optimismrus]

Trying to do that. Had session yestetday left me exhausted . Trying new psych tx so far zero

[AnxiousSilver in reply to PeaceNeed]

I'm sorry to hear that you are hurting.

Hopefully things get a little bit better between you and your new psych.

[PeaceNeed in reply to AnxiousSilver]

She has her own method of treatment. My housing is not stable. Im in program. I had relapse , now they see me at my worst.....just number to these people.

[RemySue]

Please don't give up looking for the right therapist. I'm turning 60 and trying to find the positives of that

[PeaceNeed in reply to RemySue]

Im not aging well.

[RemySue in reply to PeaceNeed]

I'm struggling with aging. I hate it. I'm trying.

[Toddzen]

I do everything I can to avoid being Hospitalized. They have nothing to offer. It's just a jail. I like the Buddhist Philosophy of No Self. My Self has been ruined by Depression. My mind hates me. But my Awareness is still pure. This is basic Zen. Basically we're just atoms experiencing Depression. Eventually we return to the universe and all of this pain will be gone forever. I look forward to not being trapped in this body. But I'm trying to find some joy everyday.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Toddzen]

I feel trapped. Everything Ive tried ruined by my disorder symptoms.

[Toddzen in reply to PeaceNeed]

I know. It's an awful disease. A new company called Joyous is prescribing daily low dosage Ketamine. Only $129. Month. This is a big breakthrough. I was paying up to $1200 a month for 3 Ketamine sessions.

[catsrock]

I'm very sorry - sounds incredibly frustrating.

[Hidden]

Try to find or do something positive. I get how you feel, I’m not doing very well myself.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Hidden]

Trying to do art . Hard to stay motivated. External situation not good.