Im going crazy pt2

[Against_the_current]

So i met some guy on my favourite videogame and followed each other on social media. In game he had the Switzerland flag but when he texted me pics from his home there was a seaside. Switzerland doesn't have sea access. Also a monkey. I thought "i guess this is a Milka cow. Now i understand why swiss chocolate is so expensive" and i thought it was hillarious because not only i found out something is wrong but also joked geographic appropriate with the prices of swiss chocolate in Bulgaria and caught something was wrong. Wanted to tell my dad because he loves geography and history but it was late so i wrote a story in Bulgarian to tell my girlfriends because apparently i thought it was genius. But he saw it and things got ugly. I wrote a long explaining but he didn't even give me a seen. I couldn't sleep all night. Spent two hours under the shower, wrote two posts here. I logged to the game to read my daily bonuses thinking he's asleep and he was online. My game is ruined. And he's online and didn't respond to me. I said i was sorry. I was just having imaginary conversations in my head about geography with my dad and because i couldn't call dad, i wrote it, in a moment when my mind was racing and i was having imaginary conversations with people and with myself and i thought i was hillarious and compulsively uploaded the story. I delieted it now but he could have screenshoted it and put it in Google translate. Maybe he would forgive that but will probably think im crazy or toxic. I got really anxious and i even tried to lie about the story saying my friend wrote those things about her friend and he was like "but you're a bad friend to upload". I know im dumb. I just don't have notesapp anymore and my handwriting is terrifying so i wanted to have my "genius" thought written somwhere. It's the second problem i "cause". Firstable i asked him who's that girl on his team and on his profile pic. He got upset

[Sabbath1]

I'm.. not sure if I follow.

But he could have a Switzerland flag and be from there without living there.. or just have roots to Switzerland. Idk .

[SoporRose in reply to Sabbath1]

Or have gone on a vacation to a beach.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

No, it's not that

[Against_the_current in reply to Sabbath1]

The thing is i messed up

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I just want to check in and see how you're doing.

[SoporRose]

With your artistic ability, I imagine that you could improve your handwriting pretty quickly. I wonder if just writing out alphabets (you know three languages, right? That's fantastic!) might be a trick to help calm your mins. You wouldn't have to think about content and it might give your mind a channel in which to run in a less-upsetting manner? Here are some examples for English you could try: thepostmansknock.com/all-of...

You could become a calligrapher. Some people make good money doing calligraphy.

But that's easy for me to say. I just wish I could offer some useful help.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thanks for trying to find a solution but I don't feel like calligraphy rn. I just feel like nothing

[ElephantsHear in reply to Against_the_current]

don’t worry. If he is a friend he’ll get over it. You’re young. We all make silly mistakes, but you learned from it, to be very careful about what you post.