Hello everyone.
Long story short: I’ve been struggling with depression for 6-7 years. However, I thought my thoughts and beliefs were normal until I was diagnosed last year. I started taking anti depressants and wow – my life started to get back on track and I even felt truly happy.
I even enjoyed my first trimester in a new college despite having my ups and downs.
It was nice till it lasted. However, it is getting worse. After passing my college exams I isolated myself from everyone. I don’t feel anything. I used to cry a lot during exam prep, but not I can’t do even this. I don’t feel recovered and energetic even after 15 hours of sleep. And, to be fair, I’d rather sleep than stay awake. I don’t have negative intrusive thought like I used to, neither do I have anxiety, I just don’t feel ANYTHING. Even the things which used to wind me up don’t annoy me that much anymore. I lost hope that I would be able to experience emotions and live a normal life. I started therapy a few months ago but I don’t think it is going to help in a long run.
I know that I need to contact my psychiatrist and I will certainly do it after their annual leave is over, but now I have nothing to do but went.
Maybe I’m overthinking and it’s not depression and I’m just tired after college trimester? I just need an opinion before I talk to my doctor.
Depressive episode and hormonal daughter
Episodes of depression come and go
Feeling blah, relationship and ttc issues, depressive episodes and anxiety.
Depression seems to always return to me.
