Depressive episode

[blacchyna]

Hi

I’m having a big depression episode because I’ve just finished college and I’ve been living with my toxic family for 4months now. I cant seem to get a job and it’s stressing me out so much normal routine such as bathing in the morning have become so hard I’ve been crying every night for the last week.I just wish I could find a switch to switch it all off I feel such negative emotions and I’m so angry God is letting me go through all this! I’ve been applying and applying since jan but I’ve never even gotten an interview ...All my friends are doing so well I just feel left behind,I feel so lifeless and waking up and being productive seems like just a chore I honestly don’t know how to keep my mind away from all these negative emotions I’m feeling I’m so tired of trying to stay sane I just feel like I’m losing my mind

The other day my dad came home with McDonald’s and I was so happy but he only bought it for my younger siblings.He bought nothing for my older brother and I.It made me more sad.I feel like a burden and I honestly don’t like living with my parents.

I just feel like everything is messed up like everything I touch becomes ruined

[Opportunity]

You are NOT alone. I was like you. Oh my gosh I could have written your post. There is nothing harder than that transition between college and job where you’re stuck at home and feel like you aren’t welcome there. I have no advice. I have advice for your parents, like, “Go easy on her. Stop acting like she doesn’t need help from you or is doing something wrong just because you grew up in a booming economy and have zero idea what it’s like now.” I’m in my 40s. My parents used to get recruiter calls on the phone when I was a kid. Whaaat? Can you imagine people calling up during dinner time to beg you to come work for them? But here you are and times are different. More kids living at home than ever before. It’s not you. I feel for you. Eventually my dad helped me get a job through his job. Then I looked into my own stuff, and eventually found my way into a kickbutt career. But at no point did I ever think, “Oh, this feels right.” Hugs (and a virtual Big Mac and 🍟) to you. 😀🦚🌿🐼

[Hidden in reply to Opportunity]

I'm 50 years old and my parents STILL drive me insane!!!! I have to live with them right now, and I unfortunately really have no other choice at all. I had an apartment and a car for a long time, but I've really fallen on hard times myself for the past 3 years. These are really tough times right now. It's absolutely the worst I've seen it. Like this is some form of the great Depression that happened back around 1920-1930. 10 long years there of abject poverty in America. What revived our country was World War 2, when we were the ones to drop the first atomic bond on Japan . Really crazy and sad, but ultimately that's what ended the war and took down Hitler. Well, I stand corrected, I don't absolutely know every detail there about it, but all I'm trying to say is this crazy pandemic coupled with Trump as our stupid President, it's just nuts. No everything going on for over a year now isn't any kind of normal at all in my book. So many people getting sick and dying all over the world now, I don't understand it all.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I meant to say atomic bomb. Yes, I can spell.

[Kristiie in reply to Hidden]

I am in the same situation as you are. I found it easier to raise two kids by myself in the 90's and early 2000's than it is to just take care of myself in 2021! Its so defeating and depleting to be in this situation. I dont know if things will turn around for us, but I really believe there are alot of us now days struggling to just live in the modest of ways. I cry alot! You are not alone...im right here in the same position you are. Much much love!!

[blacchyna in reply to Kristiie]

Thank you ❤️Get better too💕

[blacchyna in reply to Opportunity]

Thank you for the comment,it really helped❤️

[mocuatoi]

Hi Blanccyna, I feel for you I hope things will get better for you. I'm an older person experienced lots of life both goog and not so good. For me my life seem to de better when I'm going through tough times it's the time that God alert me yes the job a d money are important for us to live. But connection with God and make it a high priority. all the information I've found is in the Bible. I wish you peace and directions as you navigate your life in this difficult time.

Take care

[blacchyna in reply to mocuatoi]

Thank you

[Marshall64]

It took me awhile to find a job right out of college. I did substitute teaching and volunteer work to keep me busy as I was looking for a career in my field. It was very discouraging. I finally found a job and have been in the field ever since. Hang in there and take it one day at a time.

[blacchyna in reply to Marshall64]

Okay thank you