Loss never goes away.

[secrets22]

Totally feel like this. My world has been ripped apart and I am lost in another world .

Everything has changed from what I eat, who I speak to, where I go, what I watch, what I wear and how I feel everyday.

I wake up with a feeling of dread and sadness alone in a house where the silence is deafening. I make myself do each task and I am then exhausted.

I am in horror everyday for what happened to my husband David and in disbelief that he has gone through all of that and I can’t see him anymore.

Living a horror story and the unbearable every day in a world where people around me seem fine.

Unbearable and yet we have no choice but to bear it.

[b1b1b1]

Yes, I understand. The loss of a spouse is unbelievably painful. It can improve with time, but it is not a fast process. Would church help you? It can bring some comfort.

[artisticcatowner]

This is very difficult. I hope you find love again

[Oshgosh]

bereavement is a long process and has many stages.

Although it’s so incredibly painful it’s something that has to be worked towards and it’s just horrid.it trips you up when you least expect it.so that was an ok day,turns into disaster for you..

Please excuse me if any of my suggestions offend you.

Do you manage to get out everyday,even if it’s only for a short walk. You don’t say whether you live in the town or the country .If there’s a coffee shop/cafe it may have a regular clientele,who drop on for the company..make sure you are wrapped up.

I don’t know if you’ve ever considered bereavement conselling,it helps sometimes.sometimes it doesn’t. I hope you’re getting heating Money etc from the government.

Can I ask if you have any plans for Christmas Day ?

Please don’t think I’m being rude,asking. Perhaps you could find somewhere who’s having a lunch for people who’re alone. I know my instinct would be to refuse,but at least you’d be with someone for part of the day.

If you do decide to go go for one of the Christmas lunch ex perhaps you could take a dish.

If you think any of my ideas are stupid,please ignore them.

Be very kind to yourself x

[secrets22 in reply to Oshgosh]

Thank you so much. Yes i do get out as often as i wish to, and i do meet up with friends for meals etc...again when i feel like it, but sometimes i just want to be alone. We always entertained a lot and although not easy i do have 7 people coming for lunch on Christmas day.

Its not a case of being alone, its a case of aloneness ,of which there is a big difference.

I am a very social being but now i find its quite hard to pretend that i'm doing fine, when in fact i'm hurting, and i will not inflict my hurt on others because most people have their own problems, and no one wants to be with a misery.x

[secrets22]

hey my friend, yes my pupsters are amazing,they help me so much to weather the storm, and so glad to know Baby is fit as a fiddle.x

[Weatherwoman]

I lost my Sig. Other just three weeks ago, and can relate to your post. I feel, too, like I am in a "different world," like everyone is just gliding along. It's SO hard being in the house All Alone --I can't bear the silence --have the TV on all the time, but not paying attention. I know, I'm not helping much, probably, with my reply, just wanted you to know you are not alone. I just started Grief Counseling & plan to join a Grief Support Group -- this will help, I hope.

[Suavee]

It's a very difficult time indeed.It can only get better with time

U will definitely recover with time and eventually you will find love again.