Pain never goes away

[tjmat]

I feel like my pain never goes away. Every day is a struggle. I keep hearing every worst word ever said and keep getting mental flashes of what he’s done. I wake up in pain and cry myself to sleep in pain. It’s taking a physical and emotional toll on me. I understand that it’ll stop at some point, but in the moment it doesn’t feel like it. I think my tears will dry up and won’t be able to cry anymore but I just break down with the smallest of the smallest things.

I still cannot get out of bed most days. I laid in bed all day and night yesterday just crying and hearing these voices that it’ll never get better, that nobody cares, and no one will ever even notice it when I’m gone.

You tell yourself all your life that you will never let anyone ever make you feel horrible and break whatever you are, and then you end up right there.

[Starrlight]

Sending love healing light and hope to you...you are beautiful, worthy, you will be okay. Stay strong as tears flow let people hold you up when you feel weak. Blessings

[Starrlight]

How are you holding up? Are you with someone who has hurt you? Can you stay somewhere safe? What’s going on?

[tjmat in reply to Starrlight]

I am not doing so good. I left him a couple of weeks ago.

[tjmat in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you for checking up on me. It means a lot.

[Starrlight in reply to tjmat]

((((((((Hug))))))) What do you think would help you? It helps me to write it out and share my feelings with a loved one or a therapist.