Big Sad in aftermath of my breakup

[Olivework]

My partner I was with for 11 months Fred broke up with me a week ago. After months of turmoil and trial living together, I was ready to leave the relationship. I am experiencing such a range of emotions at once. I feel relieved that it is finally over and I am out. I am so angry and disgusted with myself for staying so long in a toxic relationship. It's as if I was under his spell and now the spell is reversed and I can see clearly he was mistreating me.

I feel like an overwhelming hopelessness and feel no motivation to take care of myself or complete basic tasks. I am not eating properly, and that is one thing I must do better. I have lost significant weight in the last month and I can't lose anymore. I have to eat to fuel my body. I have like a fog of apathy that never lifts.

Drinking surprisingly doesn't help.

[LostinPA26]

understood. I recently got out of a 2 1/2 year relationship. I feel I wanted it to work so bad that I overlooked a lot of problems we were having. Now it’s like I feel lost. I’ve been very depressed and also have trouble finding the motivation to even do the simple things.

[Olivework in reply to LostinPA26]

Ah yes, you get it. I think we're so conditioned to think "relationships take work" that sometimes we have blinders on. Have you found anything that helps the blues? I found talking about the pain with a friend helps a bit.