it's eating me alive

[Milkshake_15]

I'm so anxious about the future, I can't function sometimes. I live with this constant dread in my heart that I'm never going to make it and no matter how much work put into trying to get out of my current situation it will ever be enough. I never get a break from the fear, except when I'm asleep, IF I sleep, and it feels like I'm being eaten alive by it.

Oh and a therapist thinks I have borderline personality disorder and I feel like I'm going crazy. 😵

[Raggedy-Ann]

hi. I don't know what kind of situation you are in, but anything can change. get a clear vision of what you want and take steps toward that goal. it's okay if some days are little steps and other are a revolution. A diagnosis will help you get on the right meds, clarify what you are fighting, and give you some peace. Answers are easier to have than questions. I suggest watching some great stand up comedy.

[blackcat64013]

Hi,

Thanks for your post 👍

You are not going crazy. Your brain has gone awry and struggling to cope, hence the strange thoughts and feelings.

If your therapist isn't qualified to make a clinical diagnosis then you need to see someone who can, a clinical psychologist or doctor or psychiatrist.

One of the big ticket items in mental health is getting quality sleep 6 - 7.5 hours per night. Research "sleep hygiene" and you will see what I mean.

If you can't get good sleep by doing it by yourself, don't hesitate to ask a pharmacist for advice about natural or prescribed treatment.

All the best from 🐈‍⬛ me in

[AndrewT]

Dear Milkshake,

You are NOT Crazy but you might, very well, be genuinely Depressed.... which IS, in part actually, a Medical Condition, I don't 'know' you and maybe there ARE 'Causes For Concern', in your life BUT, even still, the right Medication Will 'Help' considerably.

I think that you need to 'Talk' to, your Doctor(s)- maybe your Consultants too- with a view to taking Medication. Do you have a 'Lovely Doc', that you really trust? If so make an appointment. (you have know Dr Smith... Jessie, or ages...)

I would definitely 'Talk' to your Team, sooner, rather than later. Will you let us ALL know how you Get On please? Sending my, indeed All our Best Wishes

AndrewT

[designguy]

You might check out the DARE Anxiety book and youtube videos about how to constructively deal with anxiety the other thing is learn about the illusion of control and learning to be able to surrender to the flow of life and accept what we can control and what we can't. A lot of out suffering comes from the false illusion of control and trying so hard to control what we can't.

[designguy]

I should have added that you can find a lot of info about control on youtube.

[HisChild4ever]

Wow! I am very sorry! It's hard to live with mental health problems but it's a very good thing to have a therapist.

I also experience fear of the future and I would like to share with you a passage from the Bible that was written by David, a godly man who experienced a lot of fear and would always turn to God:

“The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear?

The Lord is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid?

When the wicked advance against me to devour me,

it is my enemies and my foes who will stumble and fall.

Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear;

though war break out against me, even then I will be confident.

One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,

to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.

For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling;

He will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent and set me high upon a rock.

Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me;

at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;

I will sing and make music to the Lord.

Hear my voice when I call, Lord; be merciful to me and answer me.

My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”

Your face, Lord, I will seek.

Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger; you have been my helper.

Do not reject me or forsake me, God my Savior.

Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me.

Teach me your way, Lord; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.

Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me,

spouting malicious accusations.

I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."

(Psalms 27:1-14)