Grateful to be alive

[Caseopia]

I never thought I'd say I'm grateful to be alive. But I am. All my life I've said I wish I was never born and was dead and I will never wish that again. Last night I was working on an art project and using a box cutter for it. It slipped and stabbed me right in my artery in my wrist. I was bleeding out. Luckily my land lord got home 10 minutes prior and called 911. The paramedics told my room mate if he wasn't home, I would have bled out in 2 more minutes and died. I felt my body dying. It's horrifying. I fought to stay alive. I couldn't give up. I don't know how to deal with this. The sight of all the blood in the house and on me is haunting me. I'm in physical pain but I know I'll be ok now. But why am I in such a distress mentally? I really thought I was going to die. It's a horrible horrible feeling. I have a new appreciation on life and someone was watching over me.

[kenster1]

hi glad you are here as well sounds like a horrible accident had a few near things myself in the past just wish at the time I had the same thoughts as you.

[Dolphin14]

I'm glad you are ok.

This was a very traumatic event. It's replaying itself and of course you would be frightened.

Do you have a therapist? You may want to reach out to them and have a session.

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[Caseopia in reply to Dolphin14]

I had therapy yesterday morning. I need to look into a group setting to work on trama. It's affecting me badly even tho I'm safe now.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Caseopia]

I'm glad you are safe. A support group sounds like a good idea. We have a ptsd site here as well.

You need to talk and get this out. Your feelings and emotions are appropriate considering the acuity of this situation. What you want to do is work through this in a healthy way

Thinking of you

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[Caseopia in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you. I'll look at the ptsd group. I've been dealing with ptsd for years due to other reasons but this incident is haunting me. The images in my mind are horrid. Thank you again

[Dolphin14 in reply to Caseopia]

We can be re traumatized by things like this and our ptsd gets triggered.

Your welcome. Please continue to write it is very helpful

[Starrlight]

The feelings you have seem normal to me because you went through trauma. I’m so glad you could turn a scary experience into a blessing being of joy to be living.

[bonkers65]

I'm glad you're alright. I know that was stressful.