I have never really had symptoms or bad thoughts until about 3 weeks ago when I had my first panic sttack. Since then nothing has been normal. I feel like I'm going through life in a haze between extreme highs and desperating lows. Right now I've been in a very low rut for two days and this has been the worst yet. I no longer find the things fun that I used to and it seems recently I cannot calm myself down when I'm alone. My thoughts are racing from one to the next and are leaving me in constant dread. I know physically I am going to be okay and am not going to get hurt but how I feel makes any physical pain would be easier.
I fear I am going crazy and I'm losing control of myself. I've recently started therapy a week ago and anxiously await every meeting like that time of the week is my only sanity. I'm just feeling so scared I don't know where to go.