Almost 52 and completely alone in this world.
My family never wanted or loved me and I married a man who hates me just as much as they don't have children and I lost all my high school friends during high school and never really made any good ones since.
I have so many people in my life who are trying to hurt me that I just don't understand how one person's life can be so messed up.
I want to give up. I don't have any more strength for all these battles day after day-year after year-decade after decade.
I had to adopt a dog to give myself a reason to get out of bed and keep going, but I fear I cannot care for her.
I feel so alone. I have felt this way my whole life and it only gets worse. I have tried over and over to let people in, but they just end up stabbing me in the back in some unforgivable way.
I don't feel like I will ever trust anyone after the horrors of these past 6 years trying to find help. Even people who are being paid to help won't help me. I am being treated like my life is joke by my family, husband, neighbors, police and even the town court. Everyone hates me even though I have spent my life doing my best to be concerned for others needs above my own.
As a 52 yo woman I am even afraid to be in my own yard for fear of the angry people who surround me.
I have nowhere to go in this huge world for refuge. I have safe shoulder to lean on. I am so afraid. I am so alone.