My life

[Nothingnoted]

Feels like my personal and worklife is down the toilet. No energy to fight anymore not suicidal

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whatever happened?

[Nothingnoted in reply to Hidden]

Having health issues made mistakes in my past they want me to go. Just hate myself more such a loser

[Sugarhollow]

Feeling completely overwhelmed and hopeless too. You are not slone. At least you have a job it sounds like?

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sugarhollow]

Feel like such a burden to my sister and family

[Sylvain- in reply to Sugarhollow]

Same feelings here. And the lack of energy makes you don't have the strengh for changing things. It's a self-reinforcing process. Things are probably not as bad as we perceive them. But knowing that doesn't really help. My best support is to tell you are not alone struggling with these difficulties.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

Thank you, Sylvain. Im here for you also🙂

[Jane_5060 in reply to Sylvain-]

Great insight Sylvain! Helpful words can just be - I got it too and I know just how rough it is but you are not alone.❤️

[Sugarhollow]

I am guessing because of your depression. Me too. My family hss been bearing the burden of my depression. Thank god for them though

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sugarhollow]

I thinks it probably from that. Depression is very hard to deal with. Im glad you have your family. Im glad i have mine, too

[Raggedy-Ann]

Hi G

Checking in are you in a better space? I understand feeling like a burden. I don't know if this will work for you. I quit discussing my mental health with my family. I say I am good or fine. When I am needing to talk I call a mental health hotline. I am now sharing here where people understand. I have an illness and it makes me lose my will to live, this is a deadly illness. It is very hard on parents, they internalize your struggle. Some blame themselves thinking they did something wrong raising you. I look at it like I will deal with my depression and out of love I do not share that with them. I ask about their lives, have conversations that aren't centered around my depression. You are important, you are here helping others, hold your head up high.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Hi Raggedy-Ann, Thank you for the good advice. I always call the hotline when I need advice.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Nothingnoted]

I called them today.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Raggedy how are you doing right now? i hope you are feeling better cant see my therapist for a couple of weeks since she is out of network This place us so much better than the other mental health support group. I m so glad we are pals. im so glad there is a hotline I was actually tryong to nect Nami today having problems earlier this afternoon

[Lemonade915]

It is awful to have those feelings and seems like you have burnout and depression. Job burnout makes everything worse, I know from personal experience. It wrecks havoc on your body and brain. Those adrenal hormones can have you constantly "on" which make you feel overwhelmed. It is important to take care of yourself by eating well and getting a good night of sleep. Try to make time for yourself and do something you enjoy.

If you are not seeing a mental health professional, please find one to help you through this difficult period.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Lemonade915]

Thank you, Lemonade. I appreciate the good advice

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[Nothingnoted in reply to loveheat73]

Thank you

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[Jane_5060]

I feel ya Geinki. I’m around your age group. Sometimes I look back on my life and think where did I go wrong? I actually used to have a life, I had friends, some good - some not so good, I was married. We had fun, lived different places, enjoyed many adventures, laughed a lot. Had a couple of jobs that looked like they might go somewhere…I sure tried. Now I’m living back in my home town, no close friends, divorced, no children, bankruptcy, I’ve tried but I’m not fitting in anymore. Caretaker for my parents who are my best friends but one has some characteristics of dementia and the other while still doing pretty good is slowly diminishing. Already grieving their future demise. Cry almost every day. I don’t even know how to talk to people anymore. I do, but to appear cool, calm and together takes almost a Herculean effort. Then I want to sleep the rest of the day. I have found especially since Covid and and other struggles financial, social, family and safety related, people do not want to hear about your depression and anxiety. And they are not very good with the info if you do give it to them. Trust me I know. Experienced a big disaster after doing so once. UGH 😣. Like my shrink, but can’t even get into see her most of the time. Sorry, I didn’t mean to hijack your post. It just kept coming. I am not suicidal either but ya know ya just feel like not being here sometimes. It would be so nice if an old friend (a good one) would just call me. I’m tired of calling them, running after them. I don’t really do that anyway but kind of, you know…, why in the hell can’t something really good happen for me without my busting my ass for it and then it still sucks! Have you ever thought about that? When was the last time someone really reached out to you, out of the blue, wanted to talk and really meant it. Just because. Not the other way around. Some slights cut very deep. I’ve never gotten over them. I’ve experienced plenty. 🥲. But my arms are open and ready whenever the mood strikes them❤️.I could really use some love over here! Once again sorry I went overboard Geinki! Wish you the best! You are not alone. We all feel it too!

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

Please dont apologise. Im glad you responded nothing to be sorry aboutIm so glad we are here for each other I feel the same way as you do. You are giving such a wonderful gift to your parents. I took care of both of mine My dad was quite a bit older when he had me he was 57 years old. He passed away when i was 20 I wish i had more time with him. My mom had me when she was 41 years old she died when i was 36 and I wish i had more time with her. Always tell people to enjoy the times you have with your loved ones. Life is too short. Your parents appreciate all the love and support you are giving them. Your memories and love with them will last you a life time. They will always be with you. Friendships for me are very hard. They also only reach out to me when they need somethng. Ive had so many people who are so called friends they would use me foe their own good and drop me like a hot potato when they got all they wanted. Financially its hard. My therapist is good but she is out of network. Im waiting for the insurance to pay me I have a balance with her i hope she takes me back as a patient. I will always be here for you. I hope wecontinue to communicate with each other. Im glad you are here with me. Hugs🤗💜💜🤗, Gigi

[Jane_5060 in reply to Nothingnoted]

Oh thank you so much again for listening and giving good, warm advice. Please - let’s do keep in touch!❤️❤️ Stay strong! Next time I’ll try to take a less self-absorbed approach. Don’t know what happened there...😊 I hope you can stay with your therapist! And, I am glad you are here with me!

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

I paid close to 320 a month for her  I have I have to find someone else shes out of network. I owe her close to $900 and the insurance has paid me only 500 so I found someone else but I hope it works out with this person I don't know what to do anymoremfc m So stressed out from work. Work is affecting my personal life. Feel like crying my head

[Jane_5060 in reply to Nothingnoted]

I’m so sorry about the whole insurance thing. I have to go in network too. It’s inconsistent care but it’s better than nothing. My work used to do the same thing to me. I would hold it together til the end of day then when I got home I’d cry. I had a bad boss. She was a real piece of work. I pray you can get some much needed relief from work pressures!! Even if it’s just temporary. You need a break. You deserve to have things go better. If you feel like talking anytime Gigi, don’t hesitate to reach me.❤️

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

Thank you, Jane. How are you doing,

She did sound like a piece of work. I have a Japanese word for crap. If you would like to here it and a sentence for this job sucks in Japanese . Wishing you the very best,plenty of happiness and plenty of good health and peace. Thank you for you kind words. You are a very kindhearted lady. Im here for you also. Just got off the phone with my psychiatriist feeling better. Warm hugs and smiles being sent your way, Love you, Kiddo

hugs

[Jane_5060 in reply to Nothingnoted]

Wonderful!! Love you too!! You are a 💎 gem 😘😘!! Let’s keep in touch!!!

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

Thank you, my friend🥰

[Jane_5060 in reply to Nothingnoted]

And please send the Japanese word for crap and use it in a sentence. I could use a little humor tonight. Or whenever!❤️❤️ Thanks!!

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

Uncoe-Crap. I need to uncoe. Heres a good one for someone who hates their job. Shigoto Ga Warui Des. Means This job sucks. R's are pronounced like L. Whatever is Dakara. Pronounced Dah Kuh Ra

[Jane_5060 in reply to Nothingnoted]

Ha! Cool! Thanks my friend!!❤️

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

You are welcome💜

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

I would like keep in contact with you. My friend Hugs🤗🤗😬

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

i paid her 150 last friday

[Jane_5060 in reply to Nothingnoted]

Oh my gosh! I know it’s so expensive! 🥲😞

[Nothingnoted in reply to Jane_5060]

Jane your are doing the best you can. My sister says i do it to myself. i know she cares but she doesnt struggle with mental illness. im here for you also. Sending your warm smiles and a hug filled with love your way

Heart warming