little update on me and seeing light dreams question

[Adamj]

been on klonopin for a week now I’m okay also started Zoloft yesterday. I’m feeling okay, today was a bad day I’m just so on edge my prickly skin and my brain doing weird things keeps coming and going doctors still just think it’s anxiety. Was in the ER last Wednesday night because I had this horrible feeling of you’re going to die right now so I’m like ima go to the hospital they checked me out monitored for a heart attack and they were like you’re okay.

So idk if it’s from me being stressed and anxious or what but like twice I’ve been laying in a dark room with my eyes shut and I see light in my vision like even in half dream state and seen like bright light through a window that opened and clouds. Now freaked out that it means something really bad.

[Blueruth]

Sounds benign. Your brain can do tricky things at the edge of rem. Mine creates webs and big insects. Sometimes I actually reach out to know if they are real. There is a name for it. I just don’t remember.

[Blueruth in reply to Blueruth]

I’ve been told not to worry until they talk back.

[Dolphin14]

Hi Adam:

Maybe you can turn that thought around about the bright light? Look at is as there is hope.

People have reported such lights in relation to death but, it was after an event. Not when they were still " living on earth"

Are you still exercising? How much time are you spending in this dark room?

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[Adamj in reply to Dolphin14]

Yeah I try and go for a walk around the block everyday and the ride the stationary bike. Dark room is usually at night when im tryin to sleep

[Dolphin14 in reply to Adamj]

So glad to hear you are still exercising.

Do you play any relaxing music? Background noise of any kind? I found my brain working on overdrive when I would lay down at night. Meditation helps me so much.

[101315]

Good to hear you still hitting the pavement for a daily walk. And good to see you are still fighting the good fight. I have no suggestions or answers as to what the light is so I will not pretend to have any advice on it either.

Do you walk with someone, a pet or parent or partner ? How long do you usually venture out for ? Has your time increased at all in the weeks you have been at it ? Do you always take the same route ?

[Starrlight]

I’m trying hard to chill. I know it’s hard with all the symptoms of anxiety you have. Some of them it can be hard to admit it’s just anxiety, it seems so urgent. I have been getting migraines and buzzing sound in my head every day I guess from thinking and being hard on myself. Trying. I want to cry at times.

I’m so sorry you got a scare and felt you were getting a heart attack. That’s got to be hard to deal with. But it’s good you know now that the symptoms are not pointing to a heart attack but that it’s probably all anxiety related. I often think I’m falling apart in ways and although it’s anxiety I can’t always place them in the ‘it’s just anxiety’ box in my head. So I get the fear.

It’s soooo great you are still exercising! Do you find it helps? I find it hard to get out but I make myself walk for 30 minutes or so.

I have a hard time talking on the phone and being around people but yesterday I didn’t avoid the phone and tomorrow going out with people. Feels good afterwards.