On the Road to Recovery of Sexual Harassment and Domestic Violence and fighting for justice

[Girlygirl07]

Hello.

I would like to share about the time that I was a victim of sexual harassment, domestic violence and emotional abuse. In 2018, I was blackmailed or as some call it a victim of Sextortion. Before let me give a bit of a background.

I date someone for a long period of time. We were even talking about marriage. We had different beliefs. For instance I was a believer of God and he was atheist. But I was willing to work through it despite our differences.

I loved him uncontrollably and I trusted him in everything. They say love is blind and I can say yes it is.

I was so in love. I lost my virginity to him. He did lead me to sin. When he would requested sexually content I would send it him. Photos that were intimate and only for him.

I didn’t end up marrying this guy because he already had another girl. He was seeing her at the same time he was seeing me.

Dealing with the breakup itself was already hard. I didn’t feel enough. I felt like I lacked something.

I was healing and I was doing better.

However, this got worse. A year later after the breakup, I got a text and that text came with a link of an email. The email was sent by an unknown person.

The e-mail had sent me all the photos that I had sent my ex, which was only supposed to be between him and I. This unknown person that was sending the email started to sexually harassing me with my photos. He also requested more photos in exchange for money. He threatened me to leak and show it everyone if I didn’t send him anything.

I didn’t answer the email and made a police report. I even talked to an investigator. I’m trying everything to get justice for this person that violated the law and invaded my private of the intimate photos without my consult.

This was a form of domestic violence, sexual harassment.

I was shamed, humiliated and tortured in a such a matter.

I literally wanted to throw the towel and give up.

I’ve suffered from depression and anxiety. I’ve had anxiety and panic attacks. My breathing has been hard. My hand gets shaky and my eye twitches. I have vision problems. Self esteem issues. I sometimes I live with anger and resentment on why things happened the way they did.

I’m seeking help from mental services, licensed therapist and life coach. I’m talking supplements and vitamin to take care of myself. I sent time with dog and nature to not be isolated inside. I do hobbies like cooking, singing and art to distract myself.

I downloaded mental health applications and practice positive affirmations. I journal my emotions and do breathing exercises.

Because not only did it affect my mental health but also physical.

I have relationships issues. I have social anxiety. I don’t trust people or men.

I seek God for strength and forgiveness of my sin. I feel into sin sending intimate photos of love. I find hard to forgive myself because I fell in the sin of lust. Never did I imagine my photos would have consequences in such a way.

I fear what will happen in the future. I fear my profession.

It gets heavy sometimes and at times I want to throw the towel and give up.

However, if God made me with a purpose regardless of my past and mistake of falling into the sin of lust. There has to be a purpose in my life and I hope it’s for a good purpose.

It gets to me that up to this day this criminal is not found. I’m getting legal assistance from digital forensics and lawyers. And perhaps the FBI might get involved if needed. It gets to me that this criminal is still out there free doing more crime.

I would like to have my justice and I keep on praying for peace regardless of how things are.

I recently talking to a mental services and they suggested for me to join a support group to share my experience and related to people with similar experience and how to cope with it.

If there is any suggestions that you have that can help me? I would like to know.

I would like to know I’m not alone in this and that will get better. I want to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I’m fighting for justice and peace.

[WantsHelp2Change]

Hi! First, I’m so sorry that this happened to you. I know how wrong this is and I know how terribly you felt. I hope that you can find support groups to help you get through this. I can only add that I have experienced something along the same lines and I never really told anyone about it but one day, some email sent me an email with attachments and when I opened them, they were my social media pictures printed out and he used them to masturbate and showed me pictures of what he did with them. I felt assaulted, violated, disgusted and scared. I hope that you get justice and heal. Good luck!!

[Hidden]

suspect the photos were not lust but u wanting to plse and ur were in love.......just trhying to not mischaracerize this part....wron of what was done and wrong to violate and humilatre u ....can be very depressing when the preditor not found and punished....u were violated and were all deeply sorry and angry that happened to u....show huge strenght to deal witht this ....can carry ur head high.....u didnt sin to me........he did....ur shared soomeing in love....i personally.....sorry ...thats love not sin....but i dont want to hurt u or argue...just in my mind ........i know what was done to was the wrong.........u did nothig wrong in my mind............glad u are resislent and work at it so hard.......hope they pay for what they have done.....they will when they face St Petter at the pearly gates some day.....that fate.....they can not escape.....and u....will have noooo problems with facing ur maker....

[catsrock]

I'm so sorry for all you have gone through. You are very brave and I'm sending you lots of strength and support.

[Midori]

You are doing great, both for yourself and from others who have this same experience.

Cheers, Midori