Now dumped for "cheating"

[vanessi]

t's been a long process and I finally talked to my ex. He sent me a song through instagram and I asked him about my stuff that are still at his place. How everything changed so quickly well now I know he thinks i cheated on him with my best friend.

Which I didn't because he saw a pic of me with him(just a pic) and he remembers, (he never remembers anything) but almost a year ago when he was in Ireland and me in Mexico i was acting weird.

He told me once if I cheated on him I would never see him again. THE WORST IS I DID NOT DO IT. Now I know why he changed so much from one day to another. I know how is he when he gets jealous, it is very bad thing cos he doesn't talk to me. It is the first time he brought this out, he maybe thought he was doing everything to take me there and we were gonna married and then he found out the pic from my cellphone how he found it?, well before I came back from Ireland he downloaded all my pictures from my iPhone cos he didn't want to selected one by one. I remember having pics there with this friend but I didn't think was gonna be a such a big deal. He doesn't believe a lot and he is not very confident cos he is thinking I did it. I talked to him and I explained, obvs he wanted an explanation as he has pictures with his friends, Which i don't like, but they are his friends.

So I guess then he thought about me being so young and being a cheater, about the negativity he felt about our future. Now i understand other things

I don't wanna rush if he wants to come back again one day.

I feel sad he has thought that.

Ps. He didn't say exactly I cheated on him but I can read between lines, he said all this was after the breakup but I truly believe that might be the reason why he broke up with me and how he was being so cruel.

[fauxartist]

One thing I learned is, it's usually the ones cheating pointing the finger at you, what better way to justify their own actions.

[vanessi in reply to fauxartist]

Well I never ever cheated on him. I didn't have eyes for anyone and still don't have for anyone. Only God knows that he is the only man that has my love and my loyalty. God knows I never did anything with anyone.

I only hope that God can see my suffering and give me back my happiness.

[fauxartist in reply to vanessi]

You miss read me, you said your boyfriend had cheated on you and then accused you of cheating. You may want to look into therapy, or a group that deals with grief and loss, and letting go. It helped me when I was getting over a 15yr marriage that ended because my ex- cheated on me with one of my friends. I had invested enough of my life with that person to hang on or believe them about anything any more, after a while, it did get better.

[vanessi in reply to fauxartist]

He never cheated on me

[fauxartist in reply to vanessi]

Sorry, my mistake

[gogogirl in reply to vanessi]

Remember , a good relationship is built on trust- so if he does not trust you now even before you got married- you would always have to be walking on eggshells.

[vanessi in reply to gogogirl]

I'm sorry, I don't know what to think right now, I'm having one of the worst times here right now. I can't control myself. I have a terrible headache and I can't stop crying. I want to die

[pamb67 in reply to vanessi]

nothing is worth taking ur life

[gogogirl]

Here's a hug across the miles. How do you say hug in Spanish? Incidently, at a school I so some work in- some of the young kids have joined an after school Spanish club!

[vanessi in reply to gogogirl]

Abrazo

[gogogirl]

That is such a nice word written in a very expressive language.

[pamb67]

he sounds like his very insecure and is never gona belive u no matter what u say and it must be hard 4 u when u know u havnt done anythg but it seems like his got it stuck in his head and to be honest i dont know if theres a way back unless he gets help for it... how u doin now