our medical system kind of ticks me off

[Adamj]

I’m so tired of going to the doctors exposing how I feel and then being like hm just anxiety. I’ve been told just anxiety by so many different doctors for so many different things through the years. Yes I do have anxiety but even when my anxiety was at its lowest I still was told just anxiety. And it’s so frustrating not being able to explain well how you feel then being told just anxiety. Like how my body feels isn’t just anxiety I don’t get how anxiety can cause all these different sensations and now because of the anxiety and shit I’m so depressed on top of it. My body doesn’t even feel like my own I feel so out of it and confused and my mind keeps jumping all over and all the other weird shit. How can it just be anxiety. And none of them can answer why anxiety feels so strange and feels nothing like anything like anxiety to me. I keep telling them I’ll be laying sitting there and keep feeling like a chemical surging through me and it just keeps surging like something is malfunctioning and they’re like just anxiety so I just got to keep dealing with all these weird feelings and shit which just causes more fear. I want a life back. I’ve finally decided to try medicine again went into it with a clear head that it will work. It’s frustrating it really is.

“Normal blood work is fine so you must be fine”

[Blueruth]

The doctors are doing what they were trained to do with what information they got. From my observation they give you every test you ask for. Most people don't get that kind of accommodation. The medical system ticks me off because it is so unfair.

Science is about elimination of factors. Medical doctors are scientists. You need to work it on those terms if you want a different answer. Show them why it isn't anxiety with data.

[Adamj in reply to Blueruth]

It has taken me years for them to run any other tests other than just a normal blood work ya know how many times I’ve complained about heart palpitations stomach issues over the years and they did nothing but say just anxiety go in with sinus issues just anxiety. I’m working on gathering more data about how I’m feeling an journaling when I feel the weird things

[Adamj in reply to Adamj]

When I was 16 ya know what their advice for me when I was going through anxiety and panic attacks that felt completely different then this. They told me to take doses of liquid Benadryl. Now why I’m doing so bad right now I do not know.

[Blueruth in reply to Adamj]

Some logic…You state you have anxiety. You contend that there is something else. But even I know heart palpitations and stomach issues come with anxiety. So is it possible that those symptoms actually ARE from anxiety even if there are other unexplained symptoms?

[Blueruth in reply to Adamj]

I’m really working hard at not being annoyed with this response. Please reflect.

[Adamj in reply to Blueruth]

Why are you annoyed explain

[Adamj in reply to Blueruth]

I never said I didn’t have anxiety I’m saying that every time I ever go to the doctors it’s just anxiety no matter what. Hell I had covid and they’re like okay we’ll test you to ease your anxiety and shit it came back positive. And like I’ve been stating multiple times this does not feel like anxiety. I’ve never felt like this before and weird shit and feelings continue to happen. And I tell this to the doctors and they’re like hm.

[Blueruth in reply to Adamj]

As near as I can tell you aren’t working on the anxiety. Sure you say you take a med. meds are 1/4 of a cure. you bike a little. But you aren’t actually working on it. Did you say a therapist stopped working with you for that reason? And then you talk about the symptoms as if they are mystery. And when it is pointed out it is all of a sudden anxiety BUT the other symptoms… And then you complain about the, quite honestly, attentive care that many groups don’t get even if they explicitly ask for it assuming they can afford it.

I said before if it isn’t working try something else. In your case the test results you are looking for aren’t happening. You are blessed with good health. Sorry.

[Adamj in reply to Blueruth]

You have some real nerve saying I’m doing nothing to work on it. No I said a therapist stopped working with me because she just randomly stops responding after canceling one session. I don’t say all that I’ve been working on. I talk about the symptoms because they don’t make sense one bit and can be very scary. I’m convinced you never actually dealt with anxiety or super intense things that my body is doing. I’m not complaining about the care I’m complaining that all my life no matter what was going on with me it was always just anxiety even if I was actually sick. I’m also convinced that maybe you need to step back and check yourself and maybe you need to work on things because you are so hostile to so many people.

[Blueruth in reply to Adamj]

I’m being frank with you. That isn’t hostile.

[TrustYourSoul]

You have previously shared that you've been tested for everything under the sun, with Negative results. This is great, and means you are physically fine. You do take psychological meds, and as I recall, you have made changes with those throughout This year alone. Psych drugs easily confuse your brain, which as a result, causes your brain to always be fighting to figure out who you are. If you continue changing psych drugs, dosage amounts, etc., you may unfortunately remain in the state you're in. There is Nothing physically wrong with you, per All of your test results. Stop fretting about your physical health. It's all anxiety and your psych meds.

[Adamj in reply to TrustYourSoul]

I’ve only been on buspar the last 6 months was going to try other things but buspar was the only one I was actually on for a month. But no one can answer why this all feels different from any anxiety or anything I’ve ever experienced before I went through horrible anxiety and panic when I was 16. And yes I’ve had some heart tests done a brain/spine scan and some normal blood work some other little things. It’s hard to just stop fretting about real physical symptoms

[TrustYourSoul]

Adamj, you have had SO many medical tests, all with good results! Consider yourself VERY FORTUNATE that you haven't had to sit in front of a somber doctor and hear the word "CANCER". I have...... twice. I wouldn't allow it to break me! It's time for you to understand that it IS your anxiety and/or depression that is playing tricks on you.... Tricks that you CAN control better by practicing changing your behavior/thoughts as far away from doom and gloom as possible. SO many on this site have learned and shared the help and healing that occurs by kicking and shoving negative thoughts away. If you need to physically kick your leg out, or raise your fists and knock out some bad thoughts, do it. Your physical health is Fine. You are young and healthy! Time for you to start "kickboxing" the bad thoughts away that keep holding you back from Living.🙋‍♀️💜

[Adamj in reply to TrustYourSoul]

I have though had to sit in front of doctors with my mom and hear cancer a whole list of heart issues and now having to watch her go through chemo and radiation I can sympathize. I was also told that I could have this horrible thing wrong with my brain and then get told oh your phone after 2 weeks of waiting. I understand trying to just kick the bad thoughts but my brain is stuck in the irrational side most the time and it’s horrible. Or my brain jumps all around

[TrustYourSoul]

Do THIS:

Punch and kick your bad thoughts away!!!

[Sfqueen]

I understand how you feel exactly that’s why I am seeking to see a Hollistic doctor

[TrustYourSoul]

There is Nothing physically wrong with you, per the doctors and ALL of your test results! Would you be happier with less anxiety if you were diagnosed with some terrible physical illness????? You keep searching for a medical diagnosis that doesn't exist. You never mention what you are consistently doing daily to control your anxiety.

Running to doctors and hospitals, complaining about things, getting all reasonable medical tests, ALL with a negative (good) diagnosis, does Not count as a consistent method of controlling your anxiety. You aren't trying to help yourself, despite tons of empathy, sympathy, and great ideas from people on this site. I will step away from responding to your posts. I'm afraid others will too. Smiley faces, platitudes, and saying, "You poor thing" make no difference to you. Directness makes no difference either. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing(s) over and over, expecting different results. Please try to stay sane. You seem like a very good person, yet people who continuously offer real help might become weary. I would hate to see you lose some of the great support you have received. I hope you decide to make some consistent changes to improve. Only YOU can.

[Adamj in reply to TrustYourSoul]

I find it ironic that your name is “trustyoursoul” but me trusting my soul that something doesn’t feel right with my body and keep getting told it’s just anxiety I’m the insane one when I know damn well that something is off with my body I never said I want some terrible illness I’m not even saying it’s something terrible I’m saying something feels off in my body. When I do mention what I’m doing daily to control my anxiety I get told I’m not doing enough or need to push myself so far. Sometimes I wonder if some of you on here have ever actually experienced severe intense whatever I’m dealing with because some of you are quick to judge and say I’m not trying to help myself. I’ve done a lot over this past week that I haven’t posted about even took a step away from here. And most of you don’t realize that I’ve been through severe anxiety and panic before and this feels and is totally different then anything I’ve ever experienced before.