Need Some Positivity

[hunter4ransom]

I’m having another anxiety riddled morning. I just HATE the mornings. I know I’m to find things to do to occupy my time and my mind, but I’m so unmotivated and at a loss as what to do. It has been way too hot for walks and anything that costs money is out of the question. So I sit in a haze in front of the TV waiting for this horrid feeling to pass so I can function again. I just want to sleep until the storm in my brain has calmed.

[Orangeblossom85]

Hey!

I know what you feel! Watching tv? Hit good girls on Netflix!

[morenews]

i know how you feel. it will pass. hugs and support. it is ok to watch tv if it helps. give yourself some deadline(i would) for how many hours you would watch tv. may be after that : do something different. i hate mornings as well.

[MariaLove123]

I feel like I am reading my own words! I feel that way too. I dread going to sleep at night because I know the mornings are going to be full of anxiety and plopping myself in front of the tv all day. I don’t work and I fear leaving the house. Always remember it is NOT laziness. It’s a symptom of mental illness. I’m sorry you’re struggling today. I’m here if you want to talk more!

[mdowning81]

It's amazing how similar all of our experiences are. I am also having a day crippled by fear and have just been zoning out watching tv but not really watching it. I know I need to do something but just the thought of going to the mailbox seems monumental.

[mdowning81]

Sorry I guess that wasnt really positive, but reading through the posts I really identified with everyone and it got me wondering how many of us are all experiencing the same thing at the same time but doing it alone

[hunter4ransom in reply to mdowning81]

Mdowning, Identifying with me and sharing your experiences with me is very helpful. Sometimes a positive feeling comes from knowing I’m not battling alone.

[hunter4ransom]

Thank you all so much! Knowing I’m not alone is huge. Sharing your like experiences with me makes me feel not so abnormal and alienated from the world. I am so sick of this feeling. It’s like I have a couple of good days and then I crash. I just want to feel better and it’s taking longer than it ever has to bounce back. I’ve been through this before but don’t recall it taking this long or feeling this horrible. Usually once I’m back on my meds and leveled out, I just get better from there. I know it’s only been 2 weeks and SSRIs can take 4-6 weeks to reach full benefit, but I’m so done with this helpless sick feeling of dread and doom. I want to enjoy life not fear it. I want to know I’m going to be okay and not hide in my bedroom or living room until night when I do feel better. Sigh... I have hope and that’s what keeps me holding on during these dark times.

[Marshall64]

I sometimes just go to a convenience store to get a soda (or pop if your from Chicago) and talk to the people there. It is hard to overcome the inertia but once I do I feel better. Going to the library also works. Doesn't cost anything...

[hunter4ransom in reply to Marshall64]

Thank you Marshall. I’m forcing myself out of bed now at 1:30pm. So not like me as I’m usually up and going about my day by 8am when well. My daughter and I have dentist appointments for a cleaning so that is kicking my butt out of bed. At least I’ll have shiny clean teeth. 😁

[Marshall64 in reply to hunter4ransom]

Lol. I have a 12 year old and taking her to her events and play dates forces me out.