Kinda a positive post, its been a while

[Kevin160]

Its been 6 months since my last post, i dont have alot to talk about, although alot happened, i no longer feel the need to vent to solve my problems, nor feel the urge to seem reassurance or approval of my events or decisions which is a but freeing, sometimes scary, but my new motto is do it scared and its giving me wonders, not bad decisions, but things that i wouldnt normally do because anxiety is always in the way.

Eventhough i had the most progress in the middle of a pandemic which is odd, always thought i will go downhill because of all the bad circumstances teaming up against me , i still had some setbacks even now. A thing i realized, is that progress isnt at all linear, its not steady, it doesnt get better then ur suddenly magically all better

Anxiety is a fluctuating spectrum like thing, you can be on top of the world one day, the next day you feel like youre at step 1 all over again, i believe we fight anxiety to the smallest bit that we forget its needed, and we dont think that sometimes its normal to be worried, im getting these doubts that i had early in the year, im in university now and i overcame most of the anticipatory anxiety , atleast so i thought, with the build up stress from exams , waiting for results seems like hell, and although last summer i was so proud to not worry over much more important results that got me into the university itself, i still find myself taking many steps back, not sleeping well, feeling a bit anxious, but im really trying to have faith in myself, convince myself im not the worst student ever, and that i do have what it takes to do well because i know i do, i know my marks reflect that, but self doubt is a but overwhelming sometimes

This isnt a negative post after all, just thought i would check in , just an extra reminder whatever youre feeling right now isnt permanent , im holding on, and im doing ok, stay safe everybody

[Agora1]

Hi Kevin, good to hear from you. You are right, in that we get to a point with anxiety that we don't need to vent as often because we know what to do and that in itself is healing.

Keep thinking those positive thoughts. When negativity does slip in, remind yourself

that too shall pass. Success and my best to you in the coming year. xx

[Kevin160 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much, the best to you too

[newbie1956]

Wonderful Kevin!

Many of us waited to hear how you've been doing.

We can learn alot from you... Thanks for updating !

😍

[Kevin160 in reply to newbie1956]

Youre more than welcome,

[Hidden]

Hi Kevin, I am new and haven’t been following your thread, but I do recognise that when you begin to feel more in charge of your feelings etc etc, you begin to question normality, let’s face it, sometimes we forget how being ‘OK and normal’ feels like. But congrats on your progress, that’s just the best news.

[Kevin160 in reply to Hidden]

Thats very true, we start to feel that our new normal is anxiety and fear, but i guess i needed to realize its never constant, and its a spectrum, panic isnt temporary, but neither is progress, you can be on either for a period of time and thats ok , as long as youre hanging on and knowing that, we will be fine ;)I wish you all the best