Can't leave house

[Wannabehappy]

Hi everyone.. I can't leave my house. Everyday I say tomorrow I'm gonna do that tomorrow then tomorrow comes and I can't get out of bed. This has been going on for months. When I go out in the world I feel stressed and anxious. I'm ok home alone but I know it's not healthy. I have no income coming in and I fear being homeless. I got a loan that I've been living off but I don't think I can pay it back. Should I go get help? I've had depression my whole life and I'm on celexa and Wellbutrin but they obviously aren't working. This is the worst I've ever been. I'm not suicidal though. I just feel safe at home and feel the world is evil. Help.

[TeddyBear3]

Well, the world is no picnic. Maybe going out to places you can feel safe, like a library or to church. Go out but don't stay too long. Visit a relative or a neighbor. You can do this.

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First of all, I'm glad you're not suicidal.Secondly, I'm in a somewhat similar situation with not feeling safe leaving my property. I do it anyway, though, because I know it's not healthy to not go out. I got myself a Needoh stress ball yesterday as a way of distracting myself from my fears when out. It worked wonders yesterday, and I can’t wait to try out my new distraction again today!

As far as your question goes: only you can answer this.

[Dusty1234]

Hi, I do understand the pain and the tough battle you're facing. I took small steps at first and it was hard. I hope you're seeing a therapist. I know you've seen a Dr. if you're on meds. I would work all week getting ready for therapy. I was afraid, but I also looked forward to having a reason to leave my house. I also set small goals and ways to test where I was. A daily goal was to stand on my front steps, that's it. If even that seemed hard, I would try calling my sister. If I couldn't even do that, I would let it go for a while. The battle is trying not to beat yourself up. Not easy! Summer was easier because I lived in a neighborhood where people would come over and talk to you. I don't know if this helps you. However, I will tell you even though I still struggle at times, I'm so much better than I was before. My nieces think of me as outgoing and friendly. I never thought I would hear those words.

[Lizzo30]

You need to apply for disability benefits it's not good you are taking out loans and getting into debt so please reach out for help

[cbgrace1980]

Home does make us feel safe. Have you talked with the doctor that gave you those prescriptions? If not, you might want to let them know how you are feeling. We are here for you anytime you need to chat. Hugs to you. I like to stay home, too.

[Adlon57]

You are not alone in that respect Wannabehappy, I have no incentive to leave the house, no money anyway, I ALWAYS feel worst in the morning, I am a night person. I am lucky that this house I live in by myself is mine. I have never been very healthy, but the last five years has been especially bad. Thus any friends I have now are usually online. I am now retired but pension is determindly held out of my grasp, any benefits slipping through my pockets, civil service repeat mistakes🙄 My sister whom I have 'survived' off recently is rapidly reaching my financial position! My finances have always been very basic especially in the last five years! I am vulnerably disabled, so not seen regularly around the streets of my particular city? Various medications fill my medication cabinet, pain killers not included as over the years have a high pain threshold, which is bad as if I am seriously ill, I might not be aware of the pain that normally should be penetrating my body! I try to survive on basic medication for my various medical conditions, which are many! Being in solitude for so long I have lost touch with so called normal society, and in some respects absolutely abhor some aspects of it! TV is now viewed with sometimes real distain!My GP and specialists all agree I should downsize and move from this area I live in, I thought with a pension I might actually be able to obtain this, the area I live in for over 60 years I cannot stand, feeling like that for MANY years!🤞