When you think you can't take it anymore ...

[HopeforMiami]

I just want to say a few things about those times when you think that you've reached your limit and you can't go on.I want to share with you all that I've been there and I've actually thought of ways to check out that could be seen as literally accidental so that I wouldn't damage my kids more.

Please know that no matter how beaten or how tired or how alone or lost to the world you may feel in those moments, this is not you. It's an illness and if you hang on and reach out to someone, it will eventually pass.

I have thought at some of those moments that I would be giving relief to those around me if I just disappeared. And that this is no way to live. But I thank God and the people who have been able to be there for me (not often my family) I have been able to get past it and go on. And I've been able to get myself back to feeling "normal" and being productive and even feel good.

Please don't let this illness beat you because this is not you, and you deserve to feel better and be happy.

Sending you lots of positive and healing thoughts.

❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏

[Hidden]

Great post

Absolutely thrilled for you!!!!!

[CalmSeeker1]

Thank you so much for sharing. I have been having many of these intrusive thoughts and feelings lately. It is going to be helpful to reframe them in the moment that they are the illness and not true thoughts.

[HopeforMiami in reply to CalmSeeker1]

I'm glad to give you any help. We are not this illness and emotions come and go, so we can't trust them and they cannot define us.

[Hidden]

Yes just helpful to read your story especially today

[HopeforMiami]

So glad to know. Hope you feel better soon.

[Downinil]

You’re awesome! Thanks so much for reassuring us.

[CLB1125]

thank you for reminding us.

[Hidden]

Needed this tonight ❤️

[rksn]

Yes your message offers hope. But my condition keeps fluctuating and sometimes hope itself is lost. So i feel exactly the same way as you did, before overcoming the illness. Right now my psychiatrist is tapering all the meds as none of them are helping. So going through withdrawal symptoms which is further pulling me down. I'm going through treatment resistant depression for decades. Glad that you got out of it and thanks for your positive thoughts and vibes. ❤❤🙏🙏🙏

[HopeforMiami in reply to rksn]

Rksn, sorry to hear you're suffering. I'm not out of it and I may never be. But my meds help and my condition and symptoms change. I go through better times now and then but I get easily triggered.Your doctor should be weaning you off your meds to avoid withdrawal. Have you tried other doctors?

[rksn in reply to HopeforMiami]

HopeforMaimi, Good to know that meds are helping you. Then you must continue. I've consulted/changed psychiatrists. I myself know that the meds are not helping me at all. That's why I'm ok with the doctor's decision to wean out medicines.

[HopeforMiami]

I hope you find relief and feel better. 🙏

[Mskitty21]

Thank you for this 🩷

[Grandmaof3]

I really needed this today. I woke up this morning feeling some of the worst anxiety I’ve had in over a year. I slept well last night but still feel exhausted. Skipped heartbeats, digestive issues, tingling, muscle tension and twitches, feeling hot then cold. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up until it all passes. It was a stressful week which I assume triggered it. I’ve just had enough today and want to feel like myself again.

[HopeforMiami in reply to Grandmaof3]

Anxiety is exhausting and tough on our bodies and health. I know just how you feel. Sometimes I have to take an extra clonopin and go to sleep when I can. We have to be patient with this illness and appreciate the times when we are able to feel like ourselves.I hope you can get there soon.