got out of the house

[purl1]

I went to the store today with my daughter. I did pretty good. we went to kohl then car wash then grocery store. I started to panic in the car wash, but I survived. Maybe things are changing. I did take a quarter of an ativan when I got home. I felt on edge all day. so I took a quarter around 5am and then a quarter at 2:45 guess that's not bad compared to 1 and 1/2 I was taking a month ago. So I must be getting better. I still wish I could be back to normal. It's hard to hear people talking when I go out. mothers and daughter laughing and having a good time. not a care in the world. I try to put on a good face, but it's really hard. I feel bad for my kids because their mom is just not there like she should be. One of them is getting married in Sept. and I can't even help her plan because it's too much for me . the other one has prom coming up and I'm having a hard time helping her prepare for that. ugh one day at a time. I hope I can pull myself together soon.

[kenster1]

hey proud of you for having got out today a positive step in the right direction.long may it continue.

[purl1 in reply to kenster1]

hi kenster, I hope so!

[kenster1 in reply to purl1]

my mum struggled getting out the house for years.good thing about being on here is you can show encouragement to other people in similar situations.well done.

[purl1 in reply to kenster1]

did your mom evere break free of it. I just started having problems with anxiety about 4 months ago. never had any problems before that. I feel awful for what I'm putting my family through.

[kenster1 in reply to purl1]

sadly not.she lived in our family home for 42 years something like that about 2 years before she died she wanted cigarettes from the shop I usually always went for her but on this day I said no she had to do it herself.just trying to encourage her to get out.she went but didn't even know the way when she got back she was actually so happy she went.