Weather and other things

[Bookishbunny]

I’m scared of driving in the rain . The weather is supposed to be bad all week. in addition I’m in the middle of the lowest low I have ever been in. I’m not happy. Honestly if I wasn’t afraid of going to hell I wouldn’t be alive right now. I don’t think anyone cares about me I don’t even care about myself. I just want to end it and be out of pain. Does anyone reading this have any idea what it’s like not only to hate yourself but to be picked on and told that those are not reasons to struggle every single day. I have no way out. No money no friends, my parents own my car. I think of finding excuses every day to disappear. I ask for help and my mom tells me to handle it on my own, talk to my dad he tells me I’m ungrateful, doctor referrers me to a new therapist that never calls me back. My sister said more shit today and I’m done. My asshole grandpa told me I was going astray because of a nose piercing my grandma only talked about getting a husband while I was telling her about my work. I want to die.

I wish I didn’t believe in God so I could just do it. Why do I have to be so scared of dying?

I don’t know if this even makes sense. I just keep thinking about unaliving myself and I’m out of reasons to stay. I’m so angry at my family I don’t care about leaving them behind. My dreams feel too far away. All I want is one day where I have no bad thoughts no obsessions, no symptoms or pain, where everyone is nice to me and I’m not lonely, maybe I have a real life friend too? Maybe… Maybe I’m not scared anymore.

[blackcat64013]

Hi from me in Australia 👋, I am with you across the miles. Please remember you are doing the best you can each day and for you and me, that's definitely OK.👍

We cannot change what other people think.

We can change our thoughts and feelings and what we do when we are depressed.

Since you are in USA, I can recommend touching base with the ADAA (American Depression Anxiety Association) for some extra local support online or over the phone.

Seeing a therapist is also important. Don't be afraid to follow up the referral or phone therapist again. If there is no response, let your doctor know. The help from counselling is invaluable for mental health & well-being.

All the best from 💚💙

🦘

[Kainan]

Unfortunately all that you just mention comes with living. But it doesn’t have to define you. One thing you could do is ask yourself where you want to be a year from now, or 5 years from now. Once you figure that out, plan how you would get there and ask yourself if what I am doing right now is helping

[AnxiousSilver]

"I’m scared of driving in the rain . "

I understand that there will be times that you will need to drive in the rain, but a program like Weatherbug is free, and it gives you daily, weekly, hourly, and even live weather maps all for free.

That may help with you deciding on when it's best to drive, until you (eventually) get more comfortable driving in the rain. (and only need to app more for planning outdoor activities)

[Hidden]

I’m not afraid of my idea of God, Jesus! When I finally ask Jesus for help, I seem to get a answer. I keep my faith. Sorta got my personal religion, what I have faith in. I like it. Thank You