I want a break

[Bookishbunny]

I don't know what to do. I don't want to die. But I want out. I don't want things to improve slowly I can't wait anymore. I keep thinking about running away. What it would be like to drive and drive until no one could find me. I also think of how bad things have gotten and I just want to hide. I think of my sister and tell myself to fight and then she gets mad at me and I wonder if she'd even miss me. I see my parents laugh with her and I feel like they could be a family without me. Maybe without all my problems, they'd be better off.

I want time to stop. I want life to pause so I can figure things out. I want everything to stop.

[Agora1]

Bookishbunny, I remember thinking that I wanted to run away and leave my worriesbehind. The thing is we can't run from our internal thoughts. They are with us no matter where we go. And so...the thing to do is find that place within ourselves where we can take respite both physically and mentally.

Becoming a recluse for a little while may provide you with the escape you are looking for.

Driving is expensive nowadays.. Cheaper to get counseling to address your issues. x

It's all about how we interpret our stressors as well as accepting the fact that we cannot

control how others treat us. Just a thought dear one xx

[Bookishbunny]

I have no one.

[Gkaneesdoguu]

What about calling a crisis hotline? Also there are warm lines. If your county has a crisis not line, they can help route you to help. They can help you decide whether you need to go to a hospital. Depression is not easy, especially when dealing with feelings of low self worth. I know this from experience. If you are having a hard time coping, do week help. Feel better!

[Bookishbunny in reply to Gkaneesdoguu]

Im so afraid to do that. What kind of info do you have to give them?

[Gkaneesdoguu in reply to Bookishbunny]

Usually you give your name and tell them what is going on with you. They will ask some questions. Just answer the questions calmly and truthfully. They are there to help. Do not be afraid. Be at peace.

[Bill181]

God I feel the same way..but some one out there's cares bout you they just haven't found u yet ❤

[AnxiousSilver]

Simple question that I want to start with.

How often do you get out of the house?

[AnxiousSilver]

That's not silly.

Help comes from all different type of people and places.