Depressed hypochondriac

[leksi-93]

Hi everyone. I am new to this group, but have been a part of different one a few years ago. I have been well enough to function normally and live my life . Recently I have been experiencing such horrible anxiety and depression. People don’t understand because everything in my life is going great at the moment. My mother and sister started a business that is going very well, I have been accepted into a masters degree program I have dreamed about in a foreign country (finally have enough money for it) I have travelled to far away foreign countries, finally got my drivers license. All in all when I myself look at it all it seems great and that things are going my way.

But! I have been so depressed lately and anxious and don’t know what to do with myself. I started therapy again. Doesn’t seem to help much. I just feel hopeless and sad all the time. I realize I am like this because moving away from my family, my comfort place scares me. I am afraid that I can’t do it and will have to come back home as a failure.

So now I am scared to leave my house cause I have a fear something will happen to me. I have stomach aches and fear I have an incurable illness.

[Agora1]

Welcome leksi-93, this can happen to anyone who is taking a step out of theircomfort zone. Yes, even when everything in life is going well around you.

If we allow apprehension to attach to our thoughts, Anxiety comes along for the ride

and can make us insecure and doubtful.

Hang on to the positive thoughts in all you have accomplished. There is no reason to fear

that you may not succeed in your future or that something may happen to you.

Where we are at doesn't determine our fate. If that were the case, we would have to hide

in our home which seems to be how you are thinking right now.

I know, because I've been there. I hid for 5 years with Agoraphobia. What I learned was that

inside my home or not, the fears were the same. I became stuck in a cycle of fear which brought me no where.. After you address what is causing this fear and work on it, you will take that leap of faith and accomplish what you worked so hard for. Your goal is Success,

you so deserve it leksi xx

[leksi-93 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for your kind words! Makes me feel better to hear how other people overcame problems similar to mine , gives me hope !

Have a wonderful day

[AnxiousSilver]

There's really nothing that I can say ATM, that Agora1 hasn't hit already hit on the head, but I just want to welcome you here.

This is a very nice and supportive place to be.

Thank you for being here.

[leksi-93 in reply to AnxiousSilver]

Thank you!☺️

[RaleyJ6114]

Hi Leksi! I have great empathy with for you in how you are feeling.My journey also leads me through dark valleys in which I try to

understand why I feel the way I do and what to do about it. I am in therapy

but it is only helpful to a point. I get tired of feeling alone when I actually am

not alone. My faith in God and seeking him does add a dimension to my life

that helps me in my journey. It’s not a rose garden by any means but it supports my life none the less.

I wish you well in your endeavors….perhaps you might as an option seek a masters degree somewhere closer to home? Perhaps you just are not ready

to cut yourself off from your safe harbor yet….it might wind up doing you more harm than good? Just a thought.

[Daveacr1959]

Try the Wim Hof method, all free on you tube. It’s guided deep breathing exercises and long breath holds . And going in cold water a little colder each week. I have been doing it 6 months and it’s helping me with anxiety and p t s d .