Hi everyone. My name is Jonathan and I’ve been really struggling with depression and anxiety lately. It’s not something new but it’s getting hard to cope with it all. I don’t do much throughout my day and don’t feel up to doing much. I feel like a complete failure and my life is hardly worth living. I don’t want to die, in fact it’s quite the opposite, I want to live a happy and enjoyable life but it seems impossible. Everyday is filled with doubt and disappointment. I go to bed early to try to end the day as soon as possible. I feel like I don’t really have anyone to talk to about what I’m going through and even when I’m with people I feel alone. I hope that you read this post and might be interested in talking to me. The night time is the worst for me when I feel the most depressed and anxious. I don’t have any meaning or purpose in this life and don’t have any enjoyment in my days. I’m just merely existing in this world and it feels very lonely. I’m sad all day long and fearful to do anything for fear of failure or getting hurt. My self esteem is at an all time low. The only positive things I do during my days is go to the gym sometimes, I’ve been sober over five years so I go to AA meetings (but I feel alone there too) and I shower daily. I also go to counseling weekly and am working with DVR and another agency to help place me in a part time job that I might be successful at but I hardly feel capable of doing any job at the moment. I’m open to suggestions and hope to hear from some of you. Maybe we can talk further. Thank you, Jonathan.