Depressed and Anxious

[jpsmith]

Hi everyone. My name is Jonathan and I’ve been really struggling with depression and anxiety lately. It’s not something new but it’s getting hard to cope with it all. I don’t do much throughout my day and don’t feel up to doing much. I feel like a complete failure and my life is hardly worth living. I don’t want to die, in fact it’s quite the opposite, I want to live a happy and enjoyable life but it seems impossible. Everyday is filled with doubt and disappointment. I go to bed early to try to end the day as soon as possible. I feel like I don’t really have anyone to talk to about what I’m going through and even when I’m with people I feel alone. I hope that you read this post and might be interested in talking to me. The night time is the worst for me when I feel the most depressed and anxious. I don’t have any meaning or purpose in this life and don’t have any enjoyment in my days. I’m just merely existing in this world and it feels very lonely. I’m sad all day long and fearful to do anything for fear of failure or getting hurt. My self esteem is at an all time low. The only positive things I do during my days is go to the gym sometimes, I’ve been sober over five years so I go to AA meetings (but I feel alone there too) and I shower daily. I also go to counseling weekly and am working with DVR and another agency to help place me in a part time job that I might be successful at but I hardly feel capable of doing any job at the moment. I’m open to suggestions and hope to hear from some of you. Maybe we can talk further. Thank you, Jonathan.

[Hidden]

Jonathan you are sober, that is quite an accomplishment! You attend AA meetings, again an accomplishment! Have you considered being a personal trainer, since you seem to enjoy the gym? I have severe self doubt issues, and I have been climbing out of a dark hole of despair for the last year since I lost my job and gave up my addictions. I can just say that it takes courage each day to do something. Nothing will change if we don’t start the change. You have some good things going for you. You can have an amazing life, one day at a time. You are in the right place, everyone here really struggles and we encourage each other.

[jpsmith in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. I keep trying to get out of this depression

[Hidden in reply to jpsmith]

I highly recommend watching Douglas Bloch on YouTube.

[had_o]

I’m here to talk to. It’s always good to keep moving Jonathan

[Rilo7268]

i came to the point where my anxiety was interfering with my daily life so i sought therapy and am now taking a low dose of medication. have you explored any of those options?

[jpsmith in reply to Rilo7268]

I am in therapy and am taking medication that has helped some but I’m still struggling

[Rilo7268]

understandable. its a process. wish i had more to say that would help.

[fighterlife]

Hey Jonathan!

It's great that you want to have a happy and enjoyable life! That means you have the desire. Now you just need the resources and support to help you. We ALL need help getting through life!

What have you and your counselor discovered?

Have you considered seeing a pastor as well as a counselor. Or a Christian counselor. The reason I ask is the combination can really be helpful when getting to the deeper meaning of things. Also, being idle is a huge opportunity for depression to set in. It may be difficult, but get up, get out, and get involved. Also, here (bit.ly/2w4BLrf) is a great little ebook that helps understand depression.

Prayers,

[jpsmith in reply to fighterlife]

Thank you 😊

[Hidden]

Hi Johnathan. My name is Andrea. You are not alone. I too am depressed and anxious and sometimes so lonely I don't have words. I sometimes call the local warmline but I'm doing better. I was raised as an atheist which was depressing for me. I am not sure about religions but spirituality is part of health I didn't know I wasn't getting met. I just starting believing in a god like a week ago for the first time since I was little and felt better. I don't like people judging me because they aren't supposed to and they're wrong. I was ostracized twice as a young adult and it was really painful. And then kind of again as an adult with mental illness but I tell you I am glad because I have met the most amazing friends/people since discovering my bipolar and changing for the better. I hope you get happier I guess. Also remember each day is a fresh start.

[Hidden]

I hope you find what you're looking for.