I have a question for the severe anxiety suffers!
I have started making progress in my journey. Starting out almost two months ago I began having panic attacks all day everyday. Dizziness, shaking, Weird breathing Patterns racing heart. I put myself in bed out of fear and hardly moved for over a Month. I finally got angry enough that I forced myself up and to move. I make progress every day but I still have the intense “fear”feeling! A lot of nervousness feelings of dread. I feeling like I’m dying. I feel like I live as if I truly have something wrong with me and that I don’t have much time left but I’m just forcing myself along... I don’t live for the future because it feels like I don’t have one. This feeling is devastating and I can’t shake it. I have a new feeling that I haven’t been having. I feel like I am out of it! I feel like I have to question situations I’m in like when Im just having a simple conversation with someone... I have to ask myself is this really happening ... am I dreaming? Am I awake? It’s strange and very scary. I had a brain CT done abnormalities. I don’t have any numbness or tingling no difficulties walking other than the jello leg feeling from the nervousness! I just feel like someone feels when that don’t get enough oxygen kind of dazed.... a mild confusion maybe! This is sending me back down the rabbit hole to the darkest place I have some what crawled out of and as bad as I sound trust me it’s been a lot worse. It’s made me think maybe something is wrong with me something gone wrong that’s even cause all the anxiety In the first place. My doctor blames everything on my anxiety! I just want to know if anybody knows this feeling!?
I am not taking medication. Yes I know it would make this easier, it’s just the approach went with. Long term I felt I would I be better off without having a medication to depend on!