I Feel Like Everybody Hates Me Because Of My Autism

Hi, I feel like self loathing right now, because I feel like everybody hates me because of my autism. Back in the day I was a playful little guy, but I always being a brat and cannot share to everybody, even with my brother. I always get upset if my favorite movie or musical didn’t win an award and I always get upset at the team color I like didn’t win in game shows. Even, when I was in Elementary School, I always get in trouble because of my behavioral issues. At middle school and high school I was bullied a lot, because I love Disney. And today, my mom and brother always gets angry with me when I messed things up. I blame my autism. I feel like self loathed because I feel like people hate me because of my autism. I feel like hating my autism and wish I was never born autistic, so I can a normal life. I love my family and friends, but sometimes I feel like some people hates because of my ill mannered behavior and being total butt munch. I did tell them that I can’t help it, but it’s no excuse. I feel like isolated myself and I feel like ending up in the mental institution because of my behavioral issues. I wish to find myself self love, but I’m having trouble doing that. Or maybe the pandemic destroyed my life. I don’t know. I already visit my therapist, but maybe I should talk to my therapist next month about my problem.

[Daesin]

Absolutely. Yes, I would definitely talk with the therapist at your next visit. It sounds like you would be helped if you learn some coping skills. How to manage stress when you try something but don’t succeed.

Learning how to interact with others and deal with the stress of not achieving is hard for everyone. If we are Nuro typical or not Learning to understand how to interact with others is simply not easy.

Children typically are forgiven a lot more when they lapse in their interpersonal skills. But as you get older, and you have noticed, there are fewer and fewer exceptions provided. You have noticed that people seem to become frustrated quicker.

Here is the upside, It is never too late to learn. Every one of us practices our skills every day. Everyone is constantly learning and honing these skills.

You sound like a capable person. You have described your experiences, you have identified obstacles and you have stated what you want. That is impressive for anyone. It doesn’t appear to me that your autism will keep you from achieving a goal of improving your interpersonal skills. I see where you could be very successful with your interactions with others. Please speak with your therapist. With the right skills training much of this can be resolved. You will have to work though. Changing a behavior is never easy. It can be done. This is possible. Please bring this up with your therapist. Best of luck and keep us updated

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MyAutismTeam.com is good support group

[fauxartist]

Sometimes we might feel that way, and there are just some jerks in the world... so... educate the ones that are worth your time to do so, and pity the ignorant ones... Your who you are, and that's it, you don't have to excuse your autism, or justify it to anyone... anyone who cares to know you will make that effort to understand you and accept that. The others are just strangers that have no power over you unless you let them, they pass in and out of our day, and yes... sometimes it can be hurtful... but always consider the source, that's very liberating for me.. I wouldn't want to know those kind of people anyway. I hope that would help you a little bit.... thanks for sharing.