Had therapy. It was really disturbing. And i'm scared my roommate heard this disturbing conversation

[Against_the_current]

Everyone say go to therapy but sometimes therapy is more disturbing. I was Discussing my issues espessially the intrusive thoughts with poor animals and the therapist said even more disturbing things. And i thought i was alone. I was also in my room. But then my roommate knocked on the door for wet wipes and i found out i'm not alone and she was in the next room and now i'm so scared she thinks there's a psycho living with her. This therapist is more psychoanalitical and gave me really disturbing ideas and i got really frustrated and started talking louder. Good i'm a psychology student and i could realise what the therapist is telling me isn't the Absolute truth but just the psychoanalitical theories. God, i hate psychoanalyse. It creeps me out. I'm thinking whether i should change her or not be a coward and run from therapy but it's so disturbing. The ideas are so disturbing. And If my roommate heard those disturbing things... This therapy always leaves me hypervigiliant and triggered. Now i should probably clean my room and take a shower to "cleanse the vibe". I normally take these session outside so nobody hears and i have air but it was raining, i was having classes and i thought i was alone. I feel like i messed up so much. I always do at this therapy. Wondering whether it's normal or i should change her

[Tara52]

If you don't have peace about your therapist I personally would look for another. I wouldn't worry about your roommate. Everyone has issues and are a little weird including her I imagine. If she has an issue with you hopefully she will let you know. Our intrusive thoughts are such bullies at times. They are constantly telling us what we did wrong or just try to create fear. I had to learn to block those unwanted thoughts out. Sometimes I would just have to say shutup!😄 I hope you have a more peaceful day today.😊💗

[Against_the_current in reply to Tara52]

Thank you so much 😊❤️

[Blueruth]

It might not be the right therapy for you. Or those disturbing things are a breakthrough and you are ready to deal with them. As you know there are different kinds and you can ask before engaging. Ask your roommate “did you hear my therapy session”. Most people tune such a thing out if they can overhear. It is also possible she couldn’t. As a litmus Does she play music or talk on the phone? You need to do that in an office with cubicles for example.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

My therapist doesn't have an office and it's turning in a big issue for me. My psychiatrist recomended me a new therapist, a cbt one and i think that's better for me. Rn i'm so overwhelmed, i can't think

[Blueruth in reply to Against_the_current]

That sounds fair. Brene Brown's work often ties into CBT. There are books, videos and podcasts. Sanvello is an app that is CBT based and they have therapists.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

I will check, thanks