The presentation went great. But i had therapy just after it and it ruined it all

[Against_the_current]

The presentation went great and for the first time since my big trauma since 2 years i felt good. I was worrying about it and it went good. Felt good to do something, talk about mental health, advocate, felt so proud of myself as a person with social anxiety who had a good presentation with no errors and felt nice to see real people not just online classes. And i was tired but good Type of tired espessially walking back home in the heat here. But good Type of tired like "i deserve a really good rest now". But then i thought "i have therapy now. I can't rest, it will ruin my mood..". Had a shower and got late for therapy 3 mins. My therapist was like "why are you late? And why are you mistaking days?" i was like "because i'm tired". She was like "You repeat tired burnt out burnt out burnt out but your actual issue is anxiety" i was like "yes, anxiety tires me. I'm tired". She said "If you're tired we can reshedule because I Value My Time" and i felt so bad. Like i have 2 therapists that only make me feel worse. I'm again at a bad therapist. And i don't want to reshedule again. I just said I will work, i will, just keep on. It was a 30mins session after all. I'm supposed to feel better at therapy and i feel like i'm better just resting. But i really need rest. Espessially after the presentation.

Also my roommates arrived just after the session finished and i couldn't rest.

[Roxylox]

Your therapist sounds mean. She should also realise a person can have more than one issue. I mistook my days this week. Should have been online yesterday, thought it was today. I hope l don't get a reaction like yours. My lady is kind. I only get 6 free sessions, nearly done. I can't afford to pay for therapy.

I would rebuke your madam good and strong. As you say, she is supposed to make you feel good.

A big congratulations on your presentation. Well Done You!

[Against_the_current in reply to Roxylox]

Thanks. Really therapists aren't supposed to be this mean. I'm wondering whether i should change her

[Roxylox in reply to Against_the_current]

Up to you, but I don't like the sound of her

[Against_the_current in reply to Roxylox]

Oh. I really don't know what i'll do. I really don't like mean people

[Daesin]

Oh how wonderful!It sounds like you both healed a little bit that day. Thank you so very much for pointing out that the people we vent to… although they are professionals… are human beings. Negativity negativity negativity negativity , when that is all that you hear it does crisp your edges. To see potential in others and all they spew is vile and venom and negativity it’s just so disappointing when you know they could do so much better but they simply choose not to wallow in the dark.

[Against_the_current]

I'm struggling that "is she just having a bad day or is she not right for me". What you sounds really cute, some aren't allowed to share with us

[butterfly0410]

im so sorry you are dealing with therapists who dont help you feel better. thats one thing i fear about going to counseling or therapy. thats why i decided to join this website so that i can talk to people who actually go through what i do and dont have these expectations of me. i definitely get feeling tired from anxiety and from just living life and being tired from that. and not being able to get the rest you need is hard. i have been feeling that way myself lately too. thinking even though i want to do certain things that right now with how i feel mentally i might start taking a lot off of my plate until i actually feel okay enough to do them to the best of my ability. i hope you get the rest you need and maybe hopefully can find a new supportive therapist for yourself.

[Against_the_current in reply to butterfly0410]

Thanks. Really, it's so hard and exausting and not getting help makes it worse

[butterfly0410 in reply to Against_the_current]

what do you think will help you? do you just need someone to vent to? someone to give you advice? therapists i believe can be helpful but some therapists arent good and others just arent the right fit for everyone. like i may be more tolerable for certain types of people than you can. we are all different so it sounds like you just need someone who is right for you. or maybe you dont need a therapist maybe you just need a friend who can be a constant support and listening ear and someone to encourage you. i dont know your situation but i know for me i think i need advice but sometimes i just need to vent about how crappy things can feel so i can then pick myself back up like i always do.

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Well done on your presentation

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thanks!

[EmmyLoop]

It's very difficult to find a healthy, "therapeutic" therapist, but I do not believe some therapy is better than none. I am disgusted by the way she treated you. It was toxic plain and simple. She cut you down when you were already at a very low point. (Would the Health Unlocked community do that to you?) Someone who truly wants to help you does not do that! Just remember, a therapist also has the right to reschedule an appointment, if they're off their game that day. Your therapist chose to keep the appointment, so she had no right to lash out at you, late or not, tired or not. You are a trauma victim which means you have excellent intuition. Trust yourself. You obviously cannot trust her. All the time you will spend giving her an undeserved second chance can be spent looking elsewhere. You can do this!

[Against_the_current in reply to EmmyLoop]

Oh so i have to "break up" with her

[EmmyLoop]

As I was writing my reply, I thought about that. It's like breaking up with someone. The dissolution of any type relationship is.

[Against_the_current in reply to EmmyLoop]

I just can't cope with all of this psychologist stuff. Everyone sais "go to therapy" as If it's easy and as If i'm not going and it's not breaking me. I have no nerves to break up with them both and search for new one with no garantee they won't be the same

[EmmyLoop in reply to Against_the_current]

I completely understand. I've been exactly where you are.