Proud of myself. Meanwhile my roommate is searching for rock oil in the sink

[Against_the_current]

I unclogged the sink drain all alone! I know it's not much but i like to feel that way. My roommate said why are you so happy, you haven't done anything so special. But i'm happy. I was feeling inadequate, like they do everything and i'm a burden. And now my other roommate just messaged "If i was about to brag about everything i do for the accomodation". And kept scolding me. I'm mentally sick, it's hard for me. My roommate said really harsh things. She said "If i texted everything i do, you would be spammed" and the other one tagged her and wrote "i washed the dishes😂". Everyone washes their own dishes, Maria!

So my other roommate (the clean freak) washed the bag of the vacuum cleaner. I texted in the group chat "what is this" and the other one said "petrol". Like this is a sink not the Persian harbour. And while she was taking selfies with her friend (she didn't even ask me, she asked the other roommate and brought her here). I cleaned the sink but it was still broken. Today i unclogged the drain and i only got bullying. I didn't text it to brag. I just was happy and didn't want them to worry about the sink or buy this thing. I don't know where to be - with drinking mom and sick sis or bullying roommates. This was supposed to be a happy post but they bullied me

[Blueruth]

"But i'm happy. I was feeling inadequate, like they do everything and i'm a burden."

You should say this. We all have our challenges. What I am hearing is that you want to be a contributor not a burden and this was a small but good accomplishment in that direction. just say it even if they have been nasty. maybe it will get them thinking.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

I said it. They feed that feeling of inadequateness and being a burden. They must understand this

[Blueruth in reply to Against_the_current]

yeah... I worked with clicky toxic people. It stinks. Hope you can move soon

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Hope they move. I like this place

[Hidden]

I’m on your side; even little things can mean a lot to me. If I could not be comfortable in my home, I would move. And I have, multiple times. On the sly I checked out my options, til I hit paydirt. Good, now I had choices. Just my idea. Good Luck

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

I can't move out now with the price and my agoraphobia. I'm losing it rn

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

Easy, it’s if you want to, not got to. I’d just look for options. Slow & Smooth. Thanks

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Yeah. Slow and smooth. Thank you

[Hidden]

Hey - cuting to the chase- ur right....small victories..record each...lots of neg people who are all or nothing....brav for ur work ur intent ur puling ur wieght ....this is a marathon ....ur right...celebrate every steip forward...ignore the other drama (super easy to say...i have it here..have to stay away from certainn people...really dont want to get in their drama.....super impreesed...gain is gain...an inch is an inch....doing great with a stinko situation.....takes guts grit guts thikc hide a thick hide praying praying ventingw ith friends....ur doing it....turnig a pair of twos into a full house.....lemons into lemonade...however smallits ur victory......remember the Brits ...had setbacks....so what.....its a campaigne not a battle....the Brits stood their ground with nothing...we will never surrrender.....

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men.....

its takes as long as it takes ........u do whatever u have to....they are sooo my unsung heros.......on my inspiration wall.....

the toughest of the troghest of the toughest.......they slept in the underground stations during the blitz.....worked flatout to bulld fighters and supplies round the clock.....everyhing and everyone was moblized...........worked ......my country has no clue.....the Sand of the British people...,,,,

[Hidden]

ur doing what the Brits do.....start with themselves and their area.....they set their standard....clean up tidy up, whatever...start making any thing more livalble,neatercleaner...sends a messsage ...

they have more discipline one mm at a time....they aint wrong....cant control others...sure can shame them.....

even in the face of the POW camps......they maintained their collective discipline ..defiant to the end......

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

It's so hard to even live. They don't get it

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

one way to get power is put something in ur pocket ...no one knows...another is put ur hand in ur pocket when ur arounde them..or later.....with neg sign.....a little finger in my own language may mean x.....

i dont haveto commnicate to bad peoo;ple just cope

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

i can be civil onth outside but a note in my shoe....how i really feel.....many such ways...

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

i may have to comply with peopl3...

thy never own my soul or my respect........no no no...that has to be earned....and only to v speciific peop;le....

i may have to endure...so what thats just my body...not my res;pect....going through the motions.....

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Well said. And i really need to get my power back and look for ways to do it

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

hey-- sharing ---- when surrounded by sharks...we share ...not lecturing.....anything to keep them who the sharks are...off me and others....whatever works...i will do...this isnt time for theory or i dump; on a person for not hugging the shark..ish..or forgiving the shark.....no way........i do whatever i can think of to win....ande survive ......im not worrying about the sharks...ish...

(m etaphor obviously) ....great work ....guts is hanging in there when the world make zero sense....and hard choices....'

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yep....its not liogical...its a horrible mess...

yep...we deal with i5t aned make the best decisions with infor we have at the time ande dont second guess....yourself....,,we nee all our stretght ...and pace oursleves and take care of ourselves......brav brav

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

This metaphor hits. I feel like living with sharks all the time. Home, here, school. People can be cruel. And i tend to have hard time swimming and hard time fighting them. I'm too scared and don't want to fight. And thanks

[Hidden]

getting water, zero hope...whatever.....the details....ur not wrong....like an SOShi from Jupiter....connected by miracle of radio waves but otherwise.......ooooh i soo believe u and get it....in general ur perceptie and we cant fig out why othrs arnet.....because they arent us....by definition they have no idea no clue what ur going througth.....

hey ur eyes are blinking and ur breathig and u ate last week what are ya bitching about......or so i get bombed with my drinking soo what...

ur in a v v v real...v challenging and god brig what hope? all i s3e is disater all around....

u will prevail

u will at sonne point find better...we will**** by sheer force of will i site we will make it work.....we wil be an unstopp;able glacier,,,however slow.....another way to think...we are the tortise...let them think and laugh and .......we.....are the tortise in the sotriy...let them think whatver they want tol.....eye on the goal ....

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

super not easy....we...have more intestinal fortiude than our heads screaming mayday.......we will....make it work......improvise adapt overcome improvise adap;t overcome...garbage in gargage out (stuff they say) gargage in garbagfe out

kee;p upo the good work....lines always open

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

thqnks for helping me get my inspirqtion charts goingt again....

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Really, People don't understand. And i thank you more

[Against_the_current]

I got so paniced, i called granma but she has new heart meds and i paniced more. I called mom but she was at work and i paniced more that she might do a mistake because of me

[Hidden]

Ignore them since I feel a little joy over even the most minor accomplishments.Every journey starts with the first step so you not only finished a task you now know hot to do that job in the future!

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Exactly. I know it's something small but i did it and i will know how to do it. And i feel joy really rarely and they turned it to panic

[Against_the_current]

Absolutely. Actually i was hours taking a walk to avoid her and it turned out she's not even gotten home. (The bullying was in chat). Then i stayed in my room and i feel like i missed out an opportunity to chill in the living room while she's not there. Thanks for your words, hugs

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

I think you need a good friend, an advocate, close by, to protect you right now! You are ill & that’s ok, me too! Myself, I would seek inpatient treatment, get myself in a ‘safe haven’, get the help I need to think clearly! Slow & Smooth remember! Myself, I love inpatient when I need it! No shame for me; it’s what I need right then. People want to help; just sometimes I need a little push. Hope I Helped