I don't feel well

[Against_the_current]

I'm having terrible acid reflux and anxiety espessially because i'm emetophobic and because feeling that way brings me memories and bad senstations. I'm so afraid. I got so much anxiety, so much fear from whoever i live with, that anxiety builded up and now i'm glitching. My other roommate got home and i feel bad because i couldn't even greet her. I'm paralyzed by fear. I'm afraid of her. And everything. I'm scared what she might think. The talk with the other one hitted me too much. I can't stop glitching and shivering and feeling unwell. Anxiety is taking over me. And it's not like my usual anxiety. This is something else. Something i don't know what is. Some overwhelm and triggers and Burn out and trauma and so. I took meds for anxiety and reflux and everything. I'm watching stuff but the senstations is there.

[Blueruth]

What has helped you in the past to feel better?

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Funny stuff, support and meds

[Blueruth in reply to Against_the_current]

Have you tried fear melters?

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

What are fear melters?

[Blueruth in reply to Against_the_current]

It is something to help you “in the moment”. I learned about them during covid lockdowns. They really help to break you out of whatever stress you are under. There are many websites. This is just one. foundationforconsciouslivin...

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Thank you, i really needed some immediate regulation

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

I feel your pain. I too have a fear of vomiting. My was started in elementary school. I would throw up when I got anxious. At the time nobody knew especially me what that was. I just did it every Monday. Well my teacher got sick of it when I asked a friend to tell the teacher that I threw up at lunch again. She was so annoyed that she took me and my entire class to the nurse's office. The only thing the nurse did was take my temperature. Of course it was normal. She lead me out and I sat on a chair next to my entire class. My teacher talked to the nurse in front of me and my class. I still remember what she said "It feels like she does this all the time. It's some kind of pattern." I think I was 7 or 8 yes old. Most recently I had an episode of an upset stomach. I threw up and had a major anxiety attack. Had to call my fiancé home from work. I felt so ashamed. For a couple of days I barely ate and felt even more like hell. But I started talking my vitamin D and iron and I've perk up a bit.

But I'm learning to cope with emetophobia. And to accept that sometimes it happens, we threw up, it's okay. Sometimes we need to expelled things that upset our stomach. To trust in my body And being more dismissive of my anxious thoughts. Eating again. And be more acknowledging of my uncomfortable sensations and to let them be. Cause I tend to focus in on every pain or discomfort to the point it gives me anxiety. It's not easy by no means. But I'm trying. I wish you well and I understand ☺️❤️

[emmi331 in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

Wow. Some compassionate teacher. Don't idiots like this realize that humiliating a child can have a lifelong impact?

[Against_the_current in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

Thank you ❤️☺️. I was doing it all the time before i got meds. I mostly don't end up throwing but the sensations are scary enough. And when i'm in distress i don't eat neither and at those days i'm half-alive, i understand the hell. But when finally getting nutrition, vits and so, it eventually eases. School nurses and councelours can be really embarassing. I would end up at the nurse office and i know it's a panic attack and she would say "You shouldn't have so much anxiety" and i be like "believe me, it's not pleasant for me neither" and give me valerian root pills. Even my biology teacher once gave me valerian root pills. Mint helps a lot. Back then these remedies were helping a bit but now they have no effect. At least i could understand it's anxiety. I have always told the doctors what i'm sick of and what meds to give me 😅. Having this awareness helps. I know how the anxiety impackts my digestive system. But i'm just helpless. It's hard to be your own nurse. But it passes. It's really brave to live through this hell. Hope you're doing well ❤️