Really depressed. New to this side.

[Gath]

**trigger warning**

Hi, I joined this group to see if I can receive some help and try to help others if I can.

I have social anxiety, GAD, OCD, TS and I'm feeling really depressed this past weeks... I'm taking 50mg of sertraline for OCD and it kinda help with the obsessive thinking.

I really feel both alone and guilty. I've always thought that I have really supportive friends but I feel like they only help me when I ask for it and look for help. But it's too hard to talk about MH when your depressed and nobody check on me when they know I'm having suicidal thoughts, when I told them I really wish I could end my life and when I'm having a tough time and that makes me feel really lonely, specially because I'm always caring about others and asking how they're doing when I know they're sick or having a difficult time.

I feel guilty for this too because at least they help me most of the times I ask for help and there are people who doesn't even have a shoulder to cry on but that's how I feel and I don't know what to do about it.

I also know that the fact that they don't ask me how I'm doing when I'm having a hard time doesn't mean they don't care about me but is so hard to ask for help sometimes and I wish they could at least ask me when they know I have suicidal thoughts or when they know I'm hurting myself

[Queeniegirl27]

So sorry to hear this Gath,

Not sure if this will help you but one thing that might help you is buying a Trampoline,

A lot of people have used it to feel uplifted, to reduce anxiety and stress and to feel boosted.

Have you tried perhaps also thinking of having some kind of YouTube channel, or a podcast, or a blog as sometimes it can help to connect with the outside world and also become a really fun way to share your journey and give tips to people.

One video that helped me a lot is this one by Zoella, it’s called ‘Just Say Yes’, it was so helpful:

youtu.be/HG-WbtoAf2k(Not working as expected?)

I also found reading Psalm 91 a lot in the Bible and it really helped me to conquer my fears. I read it daily and I even memorised it. It’s very encouraging.

Hope this helps. Keep your head up high.

🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[Hb2003]

Hello welcome to this kind and support site . Gosh that must be really hard for you having no one to support you I’m so sorry about that lots of hugs love kindness and support to you ❤️🫂