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[SadPants]

Well I am new here. Having a really hard time lately. I am incredibly depressed and I feel very alone. I want to reach out for help but I don't want to be a burden to anyone. I have struggled with major depressive disorder, OCD, and GAD for years. Usually I can handle it and be functional, but lately it is getting much harder.

[Agora1]

Hi SadPants and that's why we are here. For those tough times in our lives. It's nice to know others share your pain and understand. Welcome to the Forum. Waiting to hear more about how we can help you get past this bump in the road. Stay positive.

[SadPants]

Thank you. I know its not true, but I feel like no one cares about me or loves me or wants me around. I am going through a divorce. I moved to a new area. My children are struggling with it all and so am I, but I feel like I don't have the right to be upset about it since I am the one that left. My best friend (and one of the only people I know in this new area) just asked me for space, and told me that he feels obligated to respond to me when I reach out to him because my texts are sad. I feel like I have shielded him from almost all of my sad or negative feelings, and haven't shared them, other than about my grandfather passing away 2 weeks ago. So that stings. My other friends (that are not nearby) are going through their own separations and other things.

[Agora1 in reply to SadPants]

SadPants, Whether you made the decision or not to leave doesn't make you immune to the sadness and emotions that go along with any divorce. You're in a new area, new environment, Anxiety does not like changes but sometimes they are necessary in allowing us to go forward. Of course the children and you are struggling with it, but that won't be forever. It's an adjustment. The not knowing where this may take you hangs over your head right now making you feel alone and not loved. Tell yourself it is normal to feel this way.

You've taken a most important step in going forward for yourself as well as your children. Life has no guarantees but in going forward there may await you a new life, a new start. Right now it's about you loving yourself. Love your children and give them the security they need in knowing you will never leave them. It's scary for all of you I'm sure.

I wanted to say how terribly sorry I am about the passing of your grandfather. Another fresh loss in your life and compounds what you are going through. But you will be okay. Stay strong, stay positive, stay with the forum. We really care and will help see you through this. xx

[gogogirl]

Hello sad pants.

[SadPants in reply to gogogirl]

Hello

[gogogirl]

Hello to you as well. How are you today?