What should I do? What do you do when you feel depressed or anxious or BOTH?

My feelings are always up and down(I'm not bipolar) it's just how I am :(. Today I feel more anxiety along with depression I just feel like stuck in misery and hell. I have chicken that I can't feed (they're not mine) because the good costs money I don't want to spend and the walking distance is no thank you. So I've just given into the idea they will die. Oh well not my fault I hope they go to chicken heaven. When I'm anxious I feel like anything that is annoying is devastating. It really makes me feel like i wanna die but not really that suicidal feeling. It's hard to care or do something to get myself out and do something to help me feel better even though I am suffering. It's a vicious cycle. What should I do? I'd like to hear some ways you guys cope with this. Many thanks.

[Gentlespirit12345]

When i feel overwhelmed sometimes i struggle not to shut down and withdraw and if its really bad suicidal thoughts may arise because emotionally and mentally i may be in pain so its more of a yearning to just want peace. I've been subjected to covert abuse for years and its trauma upon trauma yet because its difficult to prove the abuse will not end. What I'm trying to say is to ask what are your trigger s and who is toxic in your life. Can u have minimal contact? Are boundaries possible? Find little things that will make u happy.

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Thank you so much for taking time to share and give a thoughtful answer! This helps also knowing you care:).

[Nothelpless]

I went out into the sun for the second time this week - so Happy. I am trying to get in the car and just drive when I feel down so that I am around people and in the sun walking. I think it helped today. I wasn't in my head as much. I won't lie I didn't shower or even brush my teeth. I just left. Because I felt like if I didn't get out at that moment, it will be over for today, and crazy thoughts might start to creep in

By the way before this week I had been in a cycle of sleep wake up sleep wake up sleep wake up. I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I'm sleeping with my walking shoes on, on the couch next to my door

[Hidden in reply to Nothelpless]

Thank you for this! Sometimes I can't even want to get up. But I will try

[Nothelpless in reply to Hidden]

Can you write motivational words on a piece of paper and tape to the wall so you see it first thing when your eyes open?

[Hidden in reply to Nothelpless]

No because my family will think this as weirdand make fun of me haha 😂

[Nothelpless in reply to Hidden]

How about on your phone. Like a screen saver or homepage

[Hidden in reply to Nothelpless]

Oh yeah good idea. Thankssss

[froggymom88]

Maybe try making small goals for yourself. It could be as simple as get up and shower. If you accomplish it set another small goal. Always give yourself positive reinforcement when you succeed ( positive statement, a treat etc..). If you are having trouble getting started try a visualization.(See yourself doing it and succeeding)

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Thank you for the advice I just started try to do exactly what you said making small goals. Much love here!

[froggymom88]

you are welcome. Sending hugs.