Hello all

[Raremoni]

Hey guys! I’m 20 going on 21 soon. Im in a troubling position in life rn. I don’t necessarily want to be here anymore. I want my life to have excitement and mirth but it’s just inconvenience, after Trauma, after heavy obstacle with little milliseconds of joy inbetween. I lost my full scholarship, lost my job, got rehired to get fired again, found another job, loved it, felt great about myself, got fired again after 2 weeks. I lost my cat I’ve had for 11 years a couple weeks after that. I can’t afford to go back to school rn. My mom has Covid. I can barely talk to my boyfriend. I have no friends. I can’t even celebrate my 21st birthday. . I have no money, no clothes, shoes, or even alcohol to celebrate. I’m tired of being here.

[Hidden]

Life is full of obstacles but it way we handle them that makes us success. To get through this is to show strength. Don’t give up at last hurdle there is hope you will find something. Try charity or church or something Prayers I went into horticulture or gardening much much easier - I wasn’t succeeding elsewhere either

[Raremoni in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! And you’re right I have to just buck up and find something to be happy about. I appreciate you. Horticulture sounds interesting. I like taking walks through nature

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Call helpline in USA if feeling really bad

[Roxylox]

You have had a tough time of it, and l feel for you. However, things could take an upturn.Covid is hard on all of us, but l do feel particularly sorry for young people.

My son turned 21 in early lockdown, so didn't have a proper 21st.

I think we are all beginning to feel the pressure now.l think we must try and have hope.

[Raremoni in reply to Roxylox]

Yes! I feel for people around the world but it’s hard to be young in such an overwhelming and confusing time. It’s easy for us to lose our perspective. I’m sorry that your son couldn’t properly celebrate his 21st. I hope his 22nd is amazing! And thank you for sharing that with me

[Roxylox in reply to Raremoni]

Tjankd for your lovely reply

[Shnookie]

Your life is so precious. Please call the Suicide Prevention Hotline. [phone]. They R very supportive and understanding.

[Raremoni in reply to Shnookie]

Thank you for your kind words. I will call them

[Shnookie in reply to Raremoni]

Happy to hear this.

[Azul3]

I am really sorry about your situation. I am 20 and will soon be turning 21 myself. I know what it feels like to wonder if life is worth it. My life has certainly not been on the scale yours has been (although I have lost more than one beloved cat before), but I know the feeling of wondering what am I even here for. Life flies by, good times turn to bad, sometimes I wonder should I be doing something else in life and am I merely wasting my life by continuing on my current path. I am basically living out Shakespeare's Sonnet 29 by "looking upon myself and cursing my fate." But then I find something good in my life to think about "then my state, like to the lark at break of day arising from sullen earth, sings hymns at Heaven's gate." Not trying to sound like some cheesy advice, but considering the good in life can help take my mind off of ruminating on bad things.

Take one day at a time, and remember, once you are 21, there will be many more opportunities for you to go out and enjoy a drink and no one will be able to turn you down provided you have proper identification. I have no friends as well. I was homeschooled from kindergarten through senior year and I was not really around others my own age much. I have never had a boyfriend or been on a date, ever! Not that I ever really felt myself attracted to a boy enough to start a relationship. Whatever students I meet in college, they use me for my academic knowledge and then dump me. So I still have no friends. I actually get along better with some of the faculty than my peers. I have made the aquaintance of several faculty members and they seem to appreciate my hard work and effort in their classes.

If you are feeling suicidal, please seek help. You are not alone.

[Raremoni in reply to Azul3]

Thank you for sharing with me parts of your story. It’s a beautiful story. And it relates to me and inspires me. You will find your tribe. And so will I. I never looked into support groups, but I’m grateful I did now. I’m new to This community but it’s definitely helping me and putting me in the mindset to help others the way you guys are helping me. Thank you

[Melancholy12]

I know this is going to sound cliche but life will get better. In Small increments. Consider ways to go back to school. Loans / a class or two? What is your passion? Find work that you find fulfilling that will help you pay for school you like who you work with. You have no trouble getting a job it’s staying with a job. Why can’t you talk to your boyfriend? Do you have interests you can pursue - creative outlets - sports. Believe in yourself - I know even ghat sounds cliche - but your 20s will get better. I ou are trying to find yourself now. Wishing you all good things!

[Raremoni in reply to Melancholy12]

Yeah I tested positive for Covid. So ima be quarantined for 2-3 weeks most likely. So after that I’ma get a job and use that to save up money for school and to get a car. Maybe a new laptop. I can talk to my boyfriend just rare sometimes, he works 12 hours a day and he be so tired when he comes home. I don’t want to add any more stress to his life.

[Melancholy12 in reply to Raremoni]

Oh so sorry / I hope you feel better and don’t have severe symptoms - do smart saving up for school, Car and laptop. He does work a lot of hours. Try to Touch Base even for a little time each day to see how you are both doing,

[Melancholy12]

Also I lost my precious ebony - grieve fir them and when you are ready get another baby. I have tux now and a little kitty outside. I’m so sorry your mom has CoVid. Wishing her a rapid recovery. My son will be 20 next month. Covid had been so challenging for everyone. If we already had anxiety and depression, covid has made it worse. You belong on this planet. Seek a therapist if you are not with one now. True Friends will come. It’s the quality of friendships not the quantity.

[Daveacr1959]

I can see where the cat will get you down. But I am an older man, it’s in my profile. I have picked myself up and dusted myself off, as much as anyone you will ever meet. And I can tell you it it worth it! People and all living things need hope . And you have a life full of hope . Your just in a rough patch. Try this it helps me. 6-8 hours of sleep each night. Before you get out of bed do the Wim Hof guided breathing exercises free on you tube. Then 30-40 minutes of daily cardio exercise to burn off steam. You tube has aerobics or jogging in place or much more if a gym is not your thing. And her is the game changer, a daily 5 minute cold shower! Google cold shower therapy for mental health. Or you tube it . Start out at 70 degrees water catch it in a pan and check the temperature with a thermometer. Then lower the temperature 2 degrees per week. It can be a cold bath too. This stuff takes affect in 1-2 days no waiting forever to feel better. Talk to a god of your own understanding if you are a believer. Just talk to god like a friend. I don’t think all this amazing life was cooked up by the sun by accident? I get a bit upset with people who claim to have god all figured out, I sure don’t and I have been trying since I was 5 years old. I just don’t think we are all accidents of the sun and rain and stars? Cmon kid I need you to dust yourself off.

[iviv]

hello iviv here I'm so sorry your feeling sad your invited to jw. org free site please know times on the earth are very miss understood your not alone... hope your mom is better call your local social security for a disability packet if your unable to work... I'm sorry about your cat that's so sad I'm sorry for your loss sincerely sister iviv